Depression

[wowerinreally 22]

I’m almost 5 weeks post op RNY. I have spent my morning researching emotions after WLS, hormonal changes with rapid weight loss, mental illness before and after WLS, etc. I still don’t have the answer. But I can share what I’m feeling with you all.
I’m missing an extended family’s birthday meal this afternoon. There will be probably 40 people there, all very thin and athletic people minus about 5. I’m assuming that once they see me (and speak to me) for the first time after the surgery that I will be bombarded with questions. I will be watched. I will hear annoying comments like “I just love food too much to do that,” etc.
I’m already SO TIRED of almost all conversations that are initiated with me are based on my WLS, the diet, the pounds lost, the restrictions, etc. I feel like people have forgotten that I’m ERIN. I’m still a person. I’m not a surgery. I still have a life outside of this event. I’m sure I will become more comfortable and confident and find the right responses soon.
But today is hard. The past couple of weeks have been hard. I cry often. I cry about good memories and bad. I cry about worries that are in no way related to my WLS. This week I have told my almost perfect husband “shut up” about 10 times and I have NEVER said that to him not once.
I faithfully take my antidepressant. So I keep telling myself that my mind and body are going through something tremendous right now and I need to give myself a damn break. If I cry, I cry. At least I’m feeling those emotions instead of eating them. RIGHT? I’m focusing on walking several miles a day and watching it rub off on my overweight daughter.
I was warned by an acquaintance before WLS that her emotions were on a rollercoaster for a solid 6 months, then it was wonderful. She emphasized that her emotions were so wild that she regretted the surgery for at least the first 3 months, then gradually felt better. I’m sad to hear that others are experiencing these mood swings and difficulties but glad we can try to help each other.


HW: 360
SW: 343
CW: 316
GW: 180

RNY 4/16/18

RNY 4/16/18

[kgbhalloween 7]

I had sleeve on 4/25/2018. Sw: 215 cw: 192 gw: 145. I’ve been struggling with depression and binging on the soft foods for about a week. Here’s what I’ve come up with: walking is my meditation. Bariatric is my hobby for the foreseeable future. Like an alcoholic I NEED support. Having low energy and being inside too much really brought me down. Also my hormones are whacked right now. Estrogen is off. Sex is off. So I’m sure our hormones and serotonin are off so walk. If you want to connect directly I’m kgbhalloween@gmail.com