help, feelin blue

[JUDE 0]

I had my appointment on Tuesday and thought I would have a fill. However my doctor said that I'm on the right track and that as I'm still having issues with eating too quickly and with some foods, eg Pasta - that he won't give me a fill until I'm "begging for it"! He said what he meant was that if he gave me a fill now I wouldn't really notice it and that I should wait another few weeks.

I'm like many of you - it's not even a full calendar month yet since I was banded but I want more results. At the same time I'm really worried that I won't be able to change my behaviour, after all that's how I got this way in the first place.

The positive is that I've lost around 10kg and that happened in the first week when I barely ate a thing. If the band wasn't there I would probably have put that back on by now - but I haven't so something must be working.

I do feel a bit confused at times about the whole thing - time will tell how successful I'll be but I would so love to put some of those progress pictures on here with me looking fab!!!

One day

cheers, Jude

[bandster_1007 1]

i had my follow up appointment at the doctor's office yesterday and i have "officially" lost 12.8 pounds. i'm really proud because i have definately had weak moments. i try to counteract them, but that sets up a whole new thread of bad behaviors.

i was talking to dh last night..and i was telling him that i couldn't beleive that he couldn't see a difference (i can). then i was telling him that i have already lost in 2 weeks what i spent a month trying to lose crash dieting and exercising a few months back.

we decided that the weight loss i had when exercising was way more noticeable. i agree with him completely and i think i was even down in smaller pants. i think the weight loss that i have had after surgery has been a lot of Fluid and i'm sure a lot of it is internal. therefore, it makes sense that the other weight loss was more noticeable.

i can feel that the weight is off of me in my whole body (although my stomach still seems to be a bit swollen). it's weird, i wake up and stretch, and i can tell that i have lost weight by the way my skin feels on me. i think that has to do with having an eating disorder when i was younger...people with eating disorder's learn to "read" their bodies because scales are normally taken away.

but..needless to say i'm back to Curves to get that bod that i want. i also told dh that i feel TREMENDOUSLY better since surgery. this is the first time in a year that i have gone 2 weeks without a Migraine or all over body pains (from fibromyalgia)..i'm still struggling with my blood sugar, but my bp is down and i feel wonderful. exercise can only make this that much better.