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[Patrick powers 41]

I'm really depressed tonight..i screwed up..i probably ate more than I should have.. we made a ground turkey dish with veggies in it.. it was so good I ate at least 2 cups worth and a few slices of tomatoe..i got full after around 1/2 a cup and a Tomato slice but I keep going back and picking at it until I finished it..i feel really ashamed , I had been doing so well until tonight. I hope this isn't the start of bad things

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[walleyecrazy 120]

While it isn’t good that it happened you at least realize that you should not have. Try to keep that in the back of your head as you forward. Also try to remember why you started this journey when you get in those situations.

[Patrick powers 41]

Thanks I appreciate the kind encouraging words I needed to hear that. I am going to try harder today.

[DaleCruse 756]

You are not alone! We've all screwed up. The important part is to recognize what happened & take steps to not do it again. Above all, forgive yourself & move on. Good luck!

[FluffyChix 17,414]

Ok. So here's the deal...It's not ok. You know it's not ok, or you wouldn't be here confessing, disappointed, and sad. So I'm not gonna hug you and comfort you--although we are all human and we all fall. I don't want to reinforce those bad choices with comforting feedback. It's important that we get it right as much as possible, especially in the early days. You only had surgery on 11.06.17 and eating past your restriction can be physically harmful and result in more surgery to repair damage. It's a serious event and you should take it as such.

BUT. (And believe me...as a serial cheater...it's a very big BUTT! I cannot lie!) Self flagellation NEVER works. Beating ourselves up for slipping does not erase the slip, prevent physical injury, lessen the mental/spiritual toll of letting ourselves down, nor will it prevent the next event. All it does is leave us with a potentially harmful metabolic event, possible temporary scale fluctuation, and a whole bunch of mental/spiritual crap to deal with as a lovely parting gift.

So, the main thing to be certain about is that you didn't injure your surgery since it's still so recent and you are still healing. Also, Dr. Vong (YouTube fame) says that 1 event is not gonna stretch out your surgery, it's the extra bite beyond fullness that we take meal after meal, day after day that's stretches our anatomies. So see? 1 event won't kill us for the most part. Take a deep breath.

But the big thing to look at is now that you realize the potential for true harm, what do you intend to do about it? If it were me? I'd take it as a serious wake-up call and an invitation for a come-to-Jesus-meeting with my food relationships/habits/behaviors/addictive nature, et al. Things I would be looking to do:

1. Find books dealing with the subject from leaders in food addictions written by professional/licensed leaders in the bariatric community.

2. Look at pyschological concepts and techniques that help change behaviors/food relationships.

3. Find a local WLS support group or a Greysheeters or OA group and join it asap.

4. Look into being able to afford a therapist.

5. Have an open and honest discussion with your surgeon about your lapse and ask for help.

6. Come here every day and immerse yourself in a culture of people who are deeply working their plan every day so you can receive encouragement and help from an association with like-minded people.

I would love myself more and treat myself with compassion while being stern with my rebellious child inside. Kinda tough love (moderated) city.

Hang in there. Remember to take deep breaths. And really take a physical status check to make sure you don't have new or more intense/sudden pain, dark tarry stools, nausea, inability to swallow, fever, extra fatigue, etc. I'm less concerned with the "what" you ate--cuz dayum...binge eating turkey is hellah awesome! ROFLMAO. It's the big part of you being so close to your surgery date that spooks me. If you have any new symptoms call the doc asap! Saying prayers for you!!!

Edited December 8, 2017 by FluffyChix