Regretting my surgery.

[Rose400491 61]

I had my sleeve done on October 17th. I’m one of the young sleevers, I️ turned 19 this year and have been dreaming about this surgery forever and I’m very happy and grateful that I️ was blessed to be able to get it done and I’m down 30 pounds since October 3rd!
I’ve had a lot of anxiety and severe depression since I was about 15/16 years old and am still medicated for it today. Most days I have it under control and I’m stable (those with depression or anxiety can relate just people you’re on medicine doesn’t mean everyday is perfect) . I like to go out and have fun so being post-op I’m not used to staying home because I just don’t feel good.
I feel like just normal post-op nausea, gas and all that jazz along with post-op blues and depression are eating me up recently. I feel like I’m having major regrets because I just never feel good physically or mentally.
I’m a full time student and I work, I’m trying to see if going back to therapy would help. But also since I was really young I’ve always used food as a coping mechanism and that turned into binge eating problems. I’m thinking maybe it could be that and just changing my relationship with food.

[Rose400491 61]

I had my sleeve done on October 17th. I’m one of the young sleevers, I️ turned 19 this year and have been dreaming about this surgery forever and I’m very happy and grateful that I️ was blessed to be able to get it done and I’m down 30 pounds since October 3rd!
I’ve had a lot of anxiety and severe depression since I was about 15/16 years old and am still medicated for it today. Most days I have it under control and I’m stable (those with depression or anxiety can relate just people you’re on medicine doesn’t mean everyday is perfect) . I like to go out and have fun so being post-op I’m not used to staying home because I just don’t feel good.
I feel like just normal post-op nausea, gas and all that jazz along with post-op blues and depression are eating me up recently. I feel like I’m having major regrets because I just never feel good physically or mentally.
I’m a full time student and I work, I’m trying to see if going back to therapy would help. But also since I was really young I’ve always used food as a coping mechanism and that turned into binge eating problems. I’m thinking maybe it could be that and just changing my relationship with food.

I have an iPhone and it’s glitching just know that all the weird characters are suppose to be the letter “I” (eye) it won’t let me type it

[Rayelene 10]

Rose, I would go back to |Therapy for the depression and regretting having the sleeve. Im sure at your age dear it seems like forever that you are having to hold things down as you are. But in fact you are setting the base for your future for a healthier life, Not just for your body inside and out but for your Mental state as well. Please do not regret this surgery. I just came out of Gastric bypass October 3rd myself. I was like 2 lbs smaller then you when I started this and now im down to 230 pounds. Im glad you chose the sleeve over the band. I had the band and boy did it ever fail. Your not much taller then I am either and our goals are the same for the weight. So please, seek out the theropy that will work the best for you, keep your head up and continue your weight loss. Use your book (phases) as your bible and your work out place as your church and be faith full to yourself.

[Apple203 1,314]

Rayelen, I'd take it a step further and say I think everyone should be in therapy -- so worthwhile.

Edited November 4, 2017 by Apple203

[ProfessorSlim 115]

Please find a counselor, I have been there with depression, I totally get it. I do think in time, as you get fitter, you will be glad you did this. You have just changed your future in such a positive way....be proud of yourself! I am not trying to minimize your feelings, I was feeling very down a couple of days ago, today I feel great. I get it, with the depression and the ups n downs. Find someone to talk to and sort out these feelings. I think in time you will be feeling glad you made such a brave and positive change!

[Rayelene 10]

4 hours ago, Apple203 said:

Rayelen, I'd take it a step further and say I think everyone should be in therapy -- so worthwhile.

oh I definitely do agree!

[JeezLouise91 55]

The fact that you have battled with depression and anxiety and still went through with the surgery is amazing.

My anxiety is what's stopping me from taking the plunge, and I'm 26!

Be proud of yourself, remember that you won't be stuck indoors forever. This stage is only temporary, soon you'll be going out having fun again AND be slimmer, healthier and more confident all round.

It must be hard but keep visualizing what's to come.

Well done you! Be proud of yourself!

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[Rose400491 61]

Thank you everybody for the kind words. I’m getting alittle bit better everyday but will be seeking counseling again soon hopefully. I’m on my puréed stage now and I feel better getting some food into my body for energy. Putting some life into me haha

[Sullie06 1,013]

On top of what everyone else added, I suggest... go out. Try to dive back into your life and it might help you emotionally. I was having a lot of depression issues right after surgery but once I started going out and being social with my friends/family and realized I'm still me, I was doing much better. It also helped me realized that I don't need food to be social, I can just be me.

[jennypenny1998 41]

Hey! I had surgery on the 11th and I'm 19 too. I understand a lot of what you are going through. Maybe we can talk to each other and be bariatric buddies. I am thinking about going to therapy too. We just went through a lot, emotionally and physically. I think going to therapy would definitely help. And if you are not feeling up to going out, I suggest just simply sitting outside. I go sit on my bench in my yard and it does wonders. Lets you think and very relaxing.

[Rose400491 61]

Another mini update, now that I’m on pureeds I feel a lot better and with the fuel I’m getting from food it’s easier for me to get up and get out of the house to go hit the gym. And with this energy I’m finding joy in things i used to do! I’m going to a concert tomorrow with my best friend and I’m starting to paint and draw again

[Rayelene 10]

That is so great to hear! keep up the great work....