Surgery Cancelled and Giving Up

[Karleena 28]

Thanks everyone for all the support . It's like I'm living in a nightmare I keep having to take my anxiety meds. I just hope my Doc finds some compassion and I can get some help before we part our ways, and he doesn't do this to me again! Honestly I will probably annoy his staff by checking in constantly even if he does give me the OK. I'm going to try and insist he call or fax my surgeon while I'm there, and even give me a copy. This community has been so wonderful. I'm not off track. I'm hoping my resolve and prayers will go a long way. <3 <3 I hope everyone else's journeys go much smoother with less tears! These stories on here still give me a little hope.

[RP713 0]

It is the DAY BEFORE my surgery and I was woken up this morning with a call stating I did not get my pre-op testing fully done. So as instructed I rushed in to the hospital and got my chest x-ray needed (which was clear!) and it was immediately sent to my surgeon. I never go this particular paper attached in my pre-op packet they sent (their fault), and they wait until TODAY to confront me with this when I was in their office last week. So that's taken care of. Fine. Next thing my primary doc who has been pushing for me to get this for over a year REFUSES to give me clearance to my surgeon's office, becuase he WRONGLY marked my appointment with him the previous week as a follow up, and not a pre-op clearance. He also marked down that I had bronchitis? Which is complete bullshit becuase he never listened to my chest nor asked me anything about how I was feeling, just went over pre-op bloodwork for the surgery. So not only did they put down the wrong reason for me being there, but put down a bullshit diagnosis!, which is obviously false due to the x-ray. The receptionist refuses to let me talk with him and will not tell me why only to come to the appointment on Monday. She doesn't care that I have a life changing surgery tomorrow and I haven't ate anything for 2 damn weeks. The only thing I can think of is the x-ray which I tell them to look up becuase it was immediately faxed to them as well. They refuse becuase the doc is "busy". I have been trying to get this surgery for 5 years. I haven't ate solids in 2 weeks, in fact today I haven't ate anything becuase I've been so upset. Why bother? I don't want shitty food to gain weight again. I spent all my money on Protein Drinks and Soups for post surgery and I can't afford to get more. I have nothing, and now a an error on my doctor's side that is caught the day before surgery makes it so my surgery is void. I give up trying. I have severe depressive and anxiety disorder and it took me so much to get here. I have no other plans. I have no money. I'd have to do this hell ass liquid diet again. I would be lying if I said that ending it all hadn't been on my mind a few times today.
I guess this will be my last post here unless a miracle happens, becuase I'm done with this heartbreak. I've worked so hard and obviously if after 5 years of working to try to get this surgery it gets ruined like this, it wasn't meant to be.

Don’t give up. The most worthwhile things take the hardest.

[ElysiaDee 55]

I hope that your appointment goes smoothly and you get back on track for scheduling your surgery date and that everything goes wonderfully for you. You’ve been working so long and hard for this. It will finally happen.

[Fibro Queen 52]

I know this is very difficult. My surgery has been rescheduled 3 times, but due to my insurance, not any of my Dr's faults. They did not want to pay for some of the tests that I needed to take and that was AFTER they had approved me to do the Pre-surgical Weight loss program for my Dr. The insurance Co had the entire program laid out before them, so they knew all the tests I would have to take, but no one looked at them when I was approved to do the program, so as each new test came up, I would be denied and have to fight like a bull dog! grrrr So, instead of a late Aug date I am now 7 days out. I found a verse: "I said to myself, "Relax, because the Lord takes care of you" " Psalm 116:7 {New Century Version}

I will be thinking of you, and remember, you are not alone. I have discovered there are many on here that support me, and I hope that you have found that too. Where are you in need of a Dr? As a fellow traveler, I have lived in the midwest and know Dr's in several states.