Please help...need reality check! Slipping up!

[sleevedshereen 524]

I'm so ashamed of myself. Over the last week and a half I have been going through a lot of ****.

My emotional eating habit is terrible. I've been eating fast food and drinking soda. I'm sabotaging myself but the problem is I'm so f**king addicted to fast food and soda I keep saying "i'll give it up tomorrow" I've been saying that for a week and a half now.

I'm stressed, emotional, feeling a little depressed, my anxiety is through the roof and I can't stop myself from driving to a fast food drive thru on my lunch break or going to the food court at the mall on my lunch break or having a soda before dinner.

What the hell is wrong with me?? I'm struggling so bad. I know I can't eat as much as I used to but the fact that I'm falling into these old habits and can't get a hold of myself is terrifying.

I just needed to share this and reach out. I'm just struggling. I feel overwhelmed and can't handle anything so I just give up and eat...

[Walter.Sobchak 978]

You were recently sleeved right?
Wasn't it just a few months ago?
I understand emotional eating but you have to get control.
Do you have a support group?
Do you see a counselor or therapist?

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[sleevedshereen 524]

@Walter.SobchakYeah I was sleeved July 14th. 2 months ago...

I don't have a support group and I don't see a counselor or therapist. I'm just not ready to open up this vault of repressed emotions because I'm afraid of how low and dark it can get. I Just can't seek help. I've made appointments to see a therapist and cancel. I just can't do it.

I want to cry. I'm so disappointed I am falling back into old habits. This morning, I had a Protein Bar and I'm drinking Water. I WILL NOT get a kid's sized meal or have fast food and I'm giving up soda. I can't go back to old ways. I slipped up but time to get back to my goal. I don't ever want to go back to feeling the way I did before, I was miserable. I want to cry just writing this...

Edited September 18, 2017 by sleevedshereen

[Tammy T Patton 21]

Sounds like you have your reality check already. just admitting it and knowing you're sabatoging yourself. If you can' stop yourself, therapist/counselors are there to help you work out your issues. They're no there to judge you, they're there to help you and guide you through whatever hard time you are having. Ask yourself.. How bad do I want to conquer this food addiction?

[Joann454 1,329]

[mention=310857]Walter.Sobchak[/mention]Yeah I was sleeved July 14th. 2 months ago...
I don't have a support group and I don't see a counselor or therapist. I'm just not ready to open up this vault of repressed emotions because I'm afraid of how low and dark it can get. I Just can't seek help. I've made appointments to see a therapist and cancel. I just can't do it.
I want to cry. I'm so disappointed I am falling back into old habits. This morning, I had a Protein Bar and I'm drinking Water. I WILL NOT get a kid's sized meal or have fast food and I'm giving up soda. I can't go back to old ways. I slipped up but time to get back to my goal. I don't ever want to go back to feeling the way I did before, I was miserable. I want to cry just writing this...

Taking back control will do wonders for you emotionally. I went through a tough time and realized how much I "medicated" myself with food, it was shocking and I continue to struggle with this part of myself. You recognized what you were doing and you reached out for help. That's a good step. You can do this. You really can. You've already taken the first steps and now you take back that control and let go what happened yesterday. Forward girl! Today, this minute, is what matters. No looking back and beating yourself up. xo

[sleevedshereen 524]

@Joann454 Thanks for the kind words! I'm definitely going to be better this week. You're definitely right, keep pushing forward and don't beat myself up about last week, just get back on track!

[Sosewsue61 3,185]

You are hating on yourself too much. Right before you headed for that drive thru - what was going on? - what was the anxiety about?

Did eating it fix the problem, fix the anxiety?

Do you fear success or failure more?

Go home and look in a full length mirror and thank yourself, thank your body for everything it has done for you. Say things like - thanks for getting me to work today legs, thanks arms for comforting a loved one, etc. You need to love yourself right now, not later....

You are NOT the food you ate.

[Walter.Sobchak 978]

I see a psychologist, there is no shame in it.
He has helped me alot.
We have begun addressing my food addiction.
Like others have said, don't beat yourself up too much.
That will only make you want to eat more.

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[Berry78 4,261]

Sometimes we need to put barriers up in front of ourselves.

The most obvious barrier to swinging by the drivethrough is lack of money.

Pack your lunch and leave your money at home. If you need to pay for parking, just bring enough cash to cover that.

[soready17 167]

I'm so ashamed of myself. Over the last week and a half I have been going through a lot of ****.
My emotional eating habit is terrible. I've been eating fast food and drinking soda. I'm sabotaging myself but the problem is I'm so f**king addicted to fast food and soda I keep saying "i'll give it up tomorrow" I've been saying that for a week and a half now.
I'm stressed, emotional, feeling a little depressed, my anxiety is through the roof and I can't stop myself from driving to a fast food drive thru on my lunch break or going to the food court at the mall on my lunch break or having a soda before dinner.
What the hell is wrong with me?? I'm struggling so bad. I know I can't eat as much as I used to but the fact that I'm falling into these old habits and can't get a hold of myself is terrifying.
I just needed to share this and reach out. I'm just struggling. I feel overwhelmed and can't handle anything so I just give up and eat...

I was exactly where you are just a week ago. I was losing control...no I LOST control...I was eating chocolate candies bread crackers chips. I am an emotional eater and I panic and turn to food for comfort. I was having and am STILL having alot of problems with my husband. He doesn't give a crap about what I'm going through and doesn't ask about me and only cares about himself. I've already made up my mind that if this is what I will have to deal with going forward I might as well break it off. Having 2 children makes things difficult. Any who I thought realll hard about why I had surgery and why I went through all the insurance hoops just to get the surgery (surgery was on Aug 14) and came to the realization that I want to succeed in losing weight for the first time in my life. I am not going to rely on outside sources (aka my husband) for my happiness and my degree of success. Only I can make the change that is needed to finally succeed and push forward. While i was panicking and eating whatever unhealthy things i could find I calmed myself down by talking to myself-i do this sometimes and it works everytime. I told myself i deserve better and i can do anything i set my mind to. And to not let anyone or anything derail me from what i deserve. Which is a long healthy happy life. I literally cut out 85% of my stomach so i have to trust my inner self wants this health and happiness. Dont let that other inner voice who is trying to sabatage your efforts. Calm that voice down because it is only trying to protect you from what you are feeling at the moment. That is the panic i was telling you about. Food addiction is no joke as well as emotional eating. It's what got me to 314 pounds and I'm only 5'4. I just decided enough is enough. I turned 30 this august and wanted to make my 30s the best years of my life by taking charge. Good luck hun and you can message me anytime if you need. We are all going through similar things so don't worry you will get through it.

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[OutsideMatchInside 10,166]

Just take it hour by hour. Don't worry about getting through the day, that can be overwhelming. Just worry about eating and drinking right for the next hour. Then just keep making it hour by hour.

Good luck OP, we are on your side.

[dreamingsmall 1,125]

Breath , I was sleeved july 4th , not recomending this but if im feeling like i will give into cravings . have a few pure Protein days i dont eat much scale drops fast then i remember how to stay focused. Iose my cravins fast

[Apple1 2,572]

I think one way to help you stay on track is to always have good healthy food choices available. Pack your lunch and prepare your dinner. Bring Snacks with you to work.

You can do this. Don't give up!!! Just get right back to eating the way you need to.

[sleevedshereen 524]

@Sosewsue61 Thank you for the comment! I will try doing that!

[Missy161 395]

I'm feeling similarly. I ate a candy bar for the first time today- sleeved june 22. I have my nutritionist 3 month follow up tomorrow. I'm going to get some new strategies from her and Protein ideas because I'm out of them!



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