Final pre- op appointment today .. waiting and fears.

[nursejackie 24]

So today was my final appointment and now everything will be submitted to insurance for the " approval " dun dun dun. I am freaking out. I am so invested in this now that I feel like I am going to lose it if I get denied. The NP today made it seem like it is iffy when I asked her because I have a " low BMI". Only at that office am I ever referred to as a low BMI. I have a BMI of 37, high cholesterol , PCOS, fatty liver and Migraines. I really hope I get approved. My insurance requires a BMI of 35 and at least one co- morbidity which I have so why is this even an issue ?

Then another part of me. A dark part , is like I am selfish for doing this. What if I die and leave my young son without a mother because I couldn't do this on my own. I feel like a failure. I have tried to lose weight so many times and I can but I cannot keep it off. I gain it back plus more , and now the health problems are starting to pile up. I know the road I am walking down and where it will lead me. I know that if I get this and all goes well I will be a happier and more active mom. A healthier mom. A mom who will be around to see my son grow and hopefully my grandkids one day. But I cant stop that nagging feeling. Has anyone else gone through this ?

So many emotions. I guess i just had to vent and hope maybe someone could relate.

[Sosewsue61 3,185]

You should be ok according to the insurance requirements you described. The clinic is maybe not used to submitting low BMI patients.

GOOD LUCK.