Starting to get excited.

[Nightshade 0]

So, I originally spoke to my PCP about seeing a dietician or nutritionist 4 years ago when my weight started to really be an issue. At that time they kept giving me the run around and saying that they couldn't get an appointment or that they didn't have room for new paitents, ect. So I waited. For two years. While struggling on my own to figure out why I kept gaining weight. Now, at my highest weight previous to losing control of everything, I was 19 years old and about to give birth to my daughter. I weighed in at a whopping 133 lbs. By the time I asked to see a dietician for the first time I was 180ish. Two years of not knowing why I kept gaining weight, and trying everything the internet could throw at me, I was 210 lbs. And absolutely miserable. I was wearing size 14 and was tired all the time... It was just the pits. Last year I had finally had enough and cried while I begged my PCP for a referral for surgery. I was 260 lbs and had a hard time playing with my kids. My PCP tells me I won't qualify but puts the referral in anyway. After meeting with the surgeon, I was told my thyroid level was way off and they started me on synthroid. I was also started on metformin because I am apparently prediabetic. Been doing monthly appointments, my next is Friday and thats my 4th, and have 6 month requirement. Got my psych clearance. Have to attend a fitness class and a support group but just those hoops and my last few appointments... And I'm starting to get really excited and nervous. I've cut soda out, except for a slip the other day when I did a 22 hour shift... Immediately bought non carbonated caffeine by the case to keep at work in case that happens again. But.. I've gotten down to 235 and I'm so happy. I am honest about my intentions for surgery with everyone. Coworkers, neighbors, friends, family... And most people try to tell me "You're not fat enough for that." And "If you do that you'll lose a whole person, do you really want to be that skinny? You'll look sick." And I'm just like, "I look sick now. I am sick now." It's not only about looks. It's about being able to do the girls on the run 5k with my daughter, and running during baseball practice with my son. It's about feeling good. And yes, I am excited to be able to fit smaller clothes again, but until a few years ago I was an effortless size 4. So sue me that I mourn the me that could wear a slinky little dress and feel good about it. I don't feel good now, but I'm working on that. Isn't that what it's all about? Feeling good about yourself and what you do? About who you are? Anyway. I'm super excited watching those numbers drop. Being able to put down the size 22 jeans and go back to an 18 or 20. I am excited to finalize this change with the sleeve and really get down to a healthy weight again. To know I'm not going to die because I walked up the damned stairs and can't breathe. I don't post much.. But juat couldn't hold that in anymore.

[Berry78 4,261]

So glad things are going in the right direction! I think I'd fire that PCP and find another one that gives a dang. (Oh, wait, I DID! I had the same type of devil-could-care PCP, and switched to a MUCH better new one, right before my surgery!). It shouldn't have taken a bariatric surgeon to discover a low thyroid level.

[gwbicster 257]

I fired mine too- he ripped me off with the pre-op blood work, and turns out, I found a MUCH better doctor. God works in mysterious ways...

[Missy161 395]

So glad you're on your way to health. Don't be surprised if you don't ever need caffeine again! I was a pot a day girl. Quit 2 days before surgery about 4 weeks ago and haven't looked back- well once I made a tiny cup because it sounded good but it tasted awful to me! I have more energy now than ever and never get that afternoon slump anymore!


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