motherhood ((MOMS)) balancing this journey and motherhood

[ChubbyMermaid 1]

Any other parents out there struggling with taking this journey and parenting?

I started with guilt. Feeling guilty for taking this risk, the surgery, the time. Feeling guilty that I wont be available for my kids closer to surgery, during and with the recovery after.

How to I juggle it all? Just making the endless appointments (at a new hospital 2hrs away) has been hard.

But, I keep telling myself....I'm giving them the gift of a healthy active Mom.

Yes, surgery is risky. What if I don't wake up? What of something goes wrong?? Am I being selfish??

But so is being this obese! What if I have a heart attack? What if I get diabetes and cant manage it??

Am I the only one whos struggled with this choice and motherhood?

-From a mom of 4 kids. VSG in Jan!