It's Halloween and I'm Over Pretending!

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It's Scary how long it has been since I have posted, since I have visited, since I have done ANYTHING that would be considered positive in my bads care! I have been wearing the costume of a person who does not have a lap band! So you can just imagine how frightening my eating habits have become! The EERRRIE thing is during this time I have lost a good amount of weight but I fear it is from getting sick soo much. I guess I am Afraid of alot of things but mainly that my band maybe damaged or have slipped and I will have to have it removed which I cannot afford. I have had a love hate relationship with this THING ever since the first day! I want to embrace it and love it like others do but instead most of the time I feel like it is that Creature in Alien that ripps out of that guys stomache! EEEEEEK! I need some no nonsence no smoke and mirrors approach to how Take My Band Back! I do understand that I have Find and Go to a Dr ASAP before anything else! See MAYBE I Do stand a GHOST of a Chance? The scary thing is ...is it is all up to me again. :faint: