SlimDreams 175 Posted June 16, 2017 Today was not a good day for me. I had a small slice of Nothing Bundt Cake, a taco from Dairy Queen and sunflower seeds, a bunch of cherries and 4 crackers and a slice of cheese. It's a 500 calorie day for me tomorrow. Let me not forget a mini pancake LizO What was it about yesterday?? I had a hard one too… Our office has been doing potlucks every day this last week-- luckily I traveled on mon/ tues half days, so I was only really tempted on wed/ Thursday-- and I made it through Wed with flying colors. But then comes Thursday when one of my coworkers put a smuckers crustless pbj snack pack on my desk 1st thing in the morning—after I told her not to repeatedly the previous day-- she's a nice woman, means well, but I wish she had just not-- I put it in my lunch bag "away." But then kept thinking about it -- finally gave in and ate the 210 cal monstrosity and was not satisfied at all-- I had to remove some of my better and planned Snacks to compensate for those empty calories. Still the indulgence left me craving sliders the rest of the day, and I was mad at myself...Then I go to Fitmill class after work, which is this circuit low impact HIIT format where we have this fill in instructor who is pregnant… there I struggled through the whole class….all the ladies under 200lbs seemed to breeze through the class and I started to tear-up during abs thinking "How did I let myself backslide so far! I mean I was there I WAS IN ONEDERLAND!!" I could have caught it earlier, why did I let myself not care about my health- yes there were miscarriages, but I knew rationally those weren't my fault, and the doctors confirmed they could not be prevented, but that should have made me more focused on being healthy, not less, I knew it would make our future chances better not worse-- why did I go back to feeling worthless?!? Why did I punish myself in my grief? I knew better, I know better...ugh! I realize that I was already having a hard food day and beating myself up over that… and that having the class instructor announce her pregnancy probably hit me in a tender place when I was already feeling low… I can honestly say that I don’t begrudge successful pregnancies and I don’t start blubbering uncontrollably when I see or hold babies, I just pray that next time we will be the lucky ones, because this type of loss is hard, it was hard the first time and it feels compounded the second time. Logically I know as time goes by it will be less raw….logically…Anyway I made it through class, ate a healthy dinner of salmon to compensate more, although I was way over my carbs at 157 grams, my total calories came in at 1728, my net calories consumed came in at 1042 and I'm still here today….. Normally I try to be more uplifting and keep a positive outlook… Yesterday was hard… thanks for allowing me someplace to be honest and candid… 3 Bears_Chick, LadyMaggie and ZumbaMami reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
jennyqp 62 Posted June 17, 2017 I use MyFitnessPal. What's your handle? JennyqpOk now back to logging regularly! Jen Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Liz210 151 Posted June 17, 2017 Last night I had A Jr. bacon cheese burger from Wendy's, a hand full of fries and a small lemonade with ice. This may sound bad but I only had a Protein Shake yesterday morning and about a cup of sunflower seeds the whole day. I picked the 15th of the each month to have my comfort food. I try not to go crazy. Usually I do an open face sandwich, I splurge last night. I did make sure I worked out before bed. LizO 4 SlimDreams, chiquitabananaz14, ZumbaMami and 1 other reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Liz210 151 Posted June 18, 2017 Today I put on this new dress that I said I would not put on until I got back in my forties So glad to see That I am one pound away from my goal weight. Thanks to this forum that I am doing much better with my choice of foods most days. LizO 7 Kathy812, ProudGrammy, tfarr and 4 others reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
chiquitabananaz14 224 Posted June 18, 2017 Today I put on this new dress that I said I would not put on until I got back in my forties So glad to see That I am one pound away from my goal weight. Thanks to this forum that I am doing much better with my choice of foods most days. LizOBeautiful!!! A true inspiration May God bless you and keep you[emoji173]️-Mariela 1 catlady.2012 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Liz210 151 Posted June 18, 2017 Beautiful!!! A true inspiration May God bless you and keep you[emoji173]️-Mariela Thank you! LizO Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
SlimDreams 175 Posted June 19, 2017 Today I put on this new dress that I said I would not put on until I got back in my forties So glad to see That I am one pound away from my goal weight. Thanks to this forum that I am doing much better with my choice of foods most days. LizOAw Liz you look great!! So happy that you are seeing successes! 3 SandyToes143, chiquitabananaz14 and Liz210 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Liz210 151 Posted June 19, 2017 Aw Liz you look great!! So happy that you are seeing successes!Thank you LizO 1 chiquitabananaz14 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Liz210 151 Posted June 19, 2017 Monday weigh-in. I'm going to keep pushing forward because it's that time of the month starting this week. LizO 2 chiquitabananaz14 and SlimDreams reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Bears_Chick 58 Posted June 19, 2017 Liz, your picture is amazing! I know we all have a number we want to stay at, but you look fantastic! Great legs!!! Slim Dreams, your story is tough. I'm so sorry about the miscarriages. Having a bad day is going to happen, but you are aware and are working on getting things back on track..... we can only do our best. 4 SlimDreams, ProudGrammy, ZumbaMami and 1 other reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Bears_Chick 58 Posted June 19, 2017 Liz, your picture is amazing! I know we all have a number we want to stay at, but you look fantastic! Great legs!!! Slim Dreams, your story is tough. I'm so sorry about the miscarriages. Having a bad day is going to happen, but you are aware and are working on getting things back on track..... we can only do our best. 3 SlimDreams, chiquitabananaz14 and Liz210 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Bears_Chick 58 Posted June 19, 2017 I'm finally down! After two weeks of no loss, and a slight gain (0.8), I'm down that slight gain plus an additional 1.8!!!! I hit 100 lbs of weight loss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 10 Eroberts26, ProudGrammy, TaureanMe and 7 others reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JTHmom 32 Posted June 19, 2017 I would like to join and be held accountable today i weighed in at 195 need to loose 50 lbs banded 10 years ago in July 6 Kathy812, chiquitabananaz14, TaureanMe and 3 others reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
TaureanMe 15 Posted June 19, 2017 i'm here!!! lol.. looking for that push too ~ almost 2yrs out, and while i haven't gained sig, i haven't lost like others have (on Facebook, Instagram) .. i know its not a competition, but i hate feeling like a "loser" [haha pun intended?] 5 chiquitabananaz14, Katie Struthers, Bears_Chick and 2 others reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites