My 30 year love affair with food

[Qwalla 132]

Just when did this love affair with food begin? Well I wasn't overweight when I was growing up. After getting married at 17 and having 4 c-sections in the years to come I just never got back to my pre baby weight along with the stress of a failed marriage and the challenges of children, I turned to the love of my life .....food...glorious food. It comforted me at bad times, lonely times, bored times, as well as good times. Food was my center of any celebration as well. Any social event that I had or went to, food was always my plus one. It never turned me down or disappointed me. Fast forward 100 pounds later and 60 years old I needed a change.

I suffer from psoriatic arthritis, sleep apnea, high blood pressure and being on lots of various prescriptions. Many red flags were being raised right in front of my face. After talking to my supportive and loving husband of almost 27 years we began checking out bariatric sleeve surgery for me. I told him I wouldn't even consider surgery without his blessing. After attending a class I could finally see a glimmer of hope for me. Perhaps I could live out the rest of my life in better health. It took me six months of various classes and doctor appointments to get qualified for insurance coverage. As of July 27th 2016 I am now the proud owner of a brand new sleeve surgery. The emotions and stress leading up to this was somewhat overwhelming at times. There were nights and days of crying not knowing if I was making the right decision or not. Without the love and support of my wonderful husband, I am not sure I could have done it. He was supportive no matter what decision I would have came to. I can now see a life of better health and peace of mind. I feel the whole journey up to the surgery has been a love affair with food. I was always the aggressor, having to search the food out...it never magically appeared to me. It was an abusive relationship. I know there are 2 sides to every relationship. I made the mistake of abusing my love for food. I didn't choose wisely. I made poor choices. Now that the surgery is done, I had to end this unhealthy affair we had. I know I can't totally get "my then love" out of my life completely because I need "it" to survive. It had to change with new standards. It will no longer be a love affair. We will have to remain "just friends". Friends that don't abuse, and that make better choices so it isn't an easy road but I have been given the tools to succeed. I will try to remain positive throughout my journey. I know the relapse of going back to my bad choices will always be there. I have to be mindful of my actions and choices to not slip back to previous unhealthy behaviors. One day at a time. I am not perfect and you never forget a love that provided pleasure. I will push through the tough days, climb back on the wagon on my weak days, and remember the journey that has gotten me to this point. Breakups are never easy but sometimes necessary to pursue happiness and health. It has been nine months since surgery and I went from 264 pounds at 5 ft 2 inches to 175 pounds. I live in Boise Idaho and Dr. James Valentine was my surgeon. Best decision that I have ever made. Off most of my prescription drugs except thyroid and arthritis meds. Life is truly a gift and I feel like I have been given a second chance. I am blessed. This journey might not be for everyone ....but if it is for you , or not, I wish all of you health and happiness!!!!!

[jillybeanRN 76]

I couldn't have said it better!! Congratulations on your success!

[Katriena 70]

Why can we only give ONE thumbs up??


RNY 14 April 2017
SW: 295 lb / 134 kg
GW: 187 lb / 85 kg (I'll see when I get there)

[Qwalla 132]

You will do awesome. I am there for you! Believe and it will happen!