Feel like I'm losing my ever-loving mind

[austrolatrishy 2]

Had the SIPS procedure last Friday (3/17). Everything on my Facebook feed screams "food!" We have family helping us out and they brought my boys some pizza for supper. The smell was almost too much, I wanted a piece so badly! Then I got angry thinking "What have I done with myself? I have taken away this wonderful thing called stuffing my face" I know it sounds horrid. I know I needed to change. But that monster reared it's ugly head and then I started thinking of how much I would love McDonald's, and Pork rinds, and all these things I want right now. Which I wouldn't eat. But I felt angry, and sad, and irritated that I couldn't just eat what I wanted right then. What the heck is wrong with me? Is this head hunger?

[Torriluv87 300]

Definitely head hunger. It sucks but you have to push through. I had to just remove myself from the room. Or just not look. It gets better. Once you start eating real food or close to it it'll ease up a lot.

[Tessa1988 20]

I have no advice, just know i feel EXACTLY the same way. I want to lose weight, so I have no intention of binging on a whole large pizza. But the fact that I can't have it even if I wanted to is making me feel very trapped and like I made a mistake.

[littleme032017 55]

I think it would help if you go for a walk or at least go outside when the family has their meals. Anyway this is my plan.

[Sleeve1stFitNext 924]

Complete head hunger. I have that problem too. My mom brought some Halal food (which everybody knows is my favorite outside meal). I could smell the white sauce and hot sauce and I was going to snatch the container out of my moms hands and eat some. It took everything in my power. I felt like Gollum from the Lord of the Rings (she had the the precious.) lol

[Navigating the Wilderness 824]

14 hours ago, austrolatrishy said:

Had the SIPS procedure last Friday (3/17). Everything on my Facebook feed screams "food!" We have family helping us out and they brought my boys some pizza for supper. The smell was almost too much, I wanted a piece so badly! Then I got angry thinking "What have I done with myself? I have taken away this wonderful thing called stuffing my face" I know it sounds horrid. I know I needed to change. But that monster reared it's ugly head and then I started thinking of how much I would love McDonald's, and Pork rinds, and all these things I want right now. Which I wouldn't eat. But I felt angry, and sad, and irritated that I couldn't just eat what I wanted right then. What the heck is wrong with me? Is this head hunger?

It is head hunger, and perfectly normal to feel this way.

More importantly, it screams food addiction. Some people can overcome it with ease, some people have to continuously work at it (like me). As many a surgeon will tell you, they operated on your stomach, not your head. I can say it gets easier with time, but right after surgery was the worst by far.

[Airstream88 361]

I just keep telling myself that there is no food worth dying for. After my ex had a stroke at 49 and spent 6 months suffering and unable to communicate before he died, I swore to myself that I never wanted to be in a position where I couldn't speak for myself. Keep reminding yourself of why you did this. It gets better.

[austrolatrishy 2]

@Thejeweledsleeve that killed me! How funny! I felt EXACTLY like Gollum! That's a great comparison. Thank you all for the great words of advice. You are helping so much!

[Navigating the Wilderness 824]

I would also recommend reading Never Binge Again. It has some good ideas, BONUS part, I just looked and it is free today from Amazon if you choose the Kindle version:

https://www.amazon.com/Never-Binge-Again-Permanently-Overeating-ebook/dp/B014V1Q6SI/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1490375764&sr=8-1&keywords=food+addiction

[ReneK 107]

They physical part of this battle is only one small part. A good amount of it is mental. And, as hard as it is, you have to tackle and conquer that part too to be successful. Be strong. Don't beat up on yourself. But stick with it. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.....but, more importantly, it is your health and life that you're talking about. Is McDonalds really worth dying early?

I'm sorry if that sounds harsh...I'm not trying to be mean, just realistic.

[blondie66 271]

You'll be stuffing your face in a year so use this time to lose the weight and develop a healthy relationship with food. You're concentrating on what's lacking in your life instead of concentrating on taking this opportunity to embrace the chance to change your body and health. Good luck! This could be one of the best opportunities if you embrace it! Btw its head hunger u physically won't feel hunger till approximately 6 months.

[austrolatrishy 2]

2 hours ago, ReneK said:

They physical part of this battle is only one small part. A good amount of it is mental. And, as hard as it is, you have to tackle and conquer that part too to be successful. Be strong. Don't beat up on yourself. But stick with it. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.....but, more importantly, it is your health and life that you're talking about. Is McDonalds really worth dying early?

I'm sorry if that sounds harsh...I'm not trying to be mean, just realistic.

Thank you for that @ReneK Not mean at all, I appreciate the matter of fact speak. I'm not one to beat around the bush, so I appreciate the frank talk. You're right, it's not worth it. I did this for my babies, so their mom could be around to help raise them! Thank you!

[austrolatrishy 2]

Thank you @Navigating the Wilderness for the book suggestions! Downloaded and ready!

[Sweetmel7 39]

Head hunger. You have to replace the food addiction with something healthier. I go to the gym 3/4 × a week. Also, food turned me off especially after surgery and it still does. I had the SADI in December 2013
I went from 268 to 115. I also placed myself into counseling to address my food issue's. It has helped me tremendously and i was able to address my childhood trauma that i surpressed for 37 year's.

[aquarius1234 39]

Head hunger is right. I was sleeved 3/15 and it has been hitting me so hard. I have even chewed food in my mouth and then spit it out! I mean - it's like I'm absolutely crazy. I definitely have regretted it like once a day too. BUT I do realize what's happening and that I'm not alone. It's just something I really have to work through. I don't want to go back to the old ways I ate. I'm excited for the future and what new healthy meals I can make for me and my family. By the way I am still on full liquids for 3 more days -which doesn't include pudding or stuff like that. Just Protein Shakes, broths and sugar free popsicles. I am so excited to start purée foods I have already bought all the stuff I will need to make purée chicken salad and the Ricotta bake.