October bandster

hope36ca · September 21, 2007

I have a surgery date of Oct 12 at TLBC in Toronto. I start my three week pre-op today. I am actually excited about starting it (if you can imagine lol) just because it's one step closer to me becoming the person I KNOW I CAN BE.

I have struggled with my weight for many years and have lost hundreds of pounds only to gain them back. Losing weight is generally not a problem it's keeping it off that I just can't seem to do. I started dieting after my first child, I think I was 160 after I had him, then lost it only to gain it back plus more... and so the story goes same old same old....now here I sit at 335 with a BMI of 56 because of all the dieting I've done.

This has been a very emotion journey just coming to this decision to get the band. When I first heard about it I wouldn't even consider it because I thought it would be a cop out, the easy way... I felt like a failure just thinking about it. But with the many stories I have read and the few people I have connected with I started realizing that this is no cop out or magic wand that it is a tool, one of many I will need to be successful. Not to mention all the support I have read about on this forum. I started feeling there was hope for me and that I could do this. I have a new attitude and am saying "I think I can I think I can, I know I can I know I can...."

I know this is the first day of the rest of my life and for the first time in a long time I am looking forward to it. I am not naive ... I know there are many struggles ahead of me, I hope I can count on some support like I have seen here, thats the one thing I can say through all my dieting is that I've never had someone in my corner cheering me on. And boy do I need that. There is not much self esteem left here in this body...and I am my own worst enemy. So please when I need a kick in the pants please feel free to do it (lovingly).

Well I must go and enjoy my 6oz of yogurt, the first of many. Thanks to all who post regularly and share their struggles and successes. I hope this to be the first of many... Signed NOT SO HOPELESS ANY MORE!

nicnaknut · September 22, 2007

Welcome to the October TENacious TENS group.... We are happy to have you with us.... That is one thing about this place, there is lots of support... We all know the frustration of dieting and then gaining it all back only to add more lbs back on....

When you get a chance hop on over to the "Roll Call" thread and add your name and date for Holly and then hop on over to the TENacious TENS thread...