Christina.Rose 287 Posted December 31, 2016 I am having a major problem and internal conflict about getting sleeve revision surgery. First I was scheduled for December 16th but it was postponed until the 30th because I was sick. Then on the 29th my surgery got postponed to "later" because I got sick again. The funny thing is I was fine for Christmas and thought I was better. Now Im hacking up a lung....Yay. I have been blessed with being able to enroll in my last semester of college, spending time with my kids....and a lot of personal stuff I know are blessings and not coincidences.....and I thought my sleeve too was a "gift". Lately have been getting signs or thinking Im getting signs that Im going to die with this surgery. I know it sounds crazy, but my sister said she had the same feeling. There are more specific details I don't feel like explaining, but its making me miserable. I am praying (Christian/Catholic btw) for guidance and just want some outside opinions. Am I just regular-surgery-nervous or is God telling me No? Or just wait a while? I know God wont reply to this post, lol....but any thoughts would help me, I think. Thanks. Sent from my SM-J700P using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
#BirdDog 604 Posted December 31, 2016 This is tough and I understand feeling conflicted. Sometimes it's hard to really tell when God is trying to give you signs. I think he has a plan for you, and whichever way you go with the surgery will be within his plan. I don't think you have control over that, if its in the card or not it has already been planned. The best I can suggest is to keep praying about it. I think the fear of death on the operating table is completely normal. I have a feeling you will get over the illness shortly and be right back on track after this slight hiccup. Not sure I was much help, but I am praying for you! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
LittleBill 2,231 Posted December 31, 2016 There are a couple of things going on here. One is the response you receive to your prayers, and two is how you interpret that response. God usually works in our lives through opened and closed doors. What might be no for now may not always be no. It might be "wait". Keep praying and let things take their course. The hardest part is being patient. You've mentioned you've been given many other blessings. Focus on those things for now and don't let this get you down. There may be things that need to happen about which you know nothing before the time is right. 1 Newme17 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
southbound 159 Posted December 31, 2016 Praying for you to have clarity, discernment and healing! Sometimes we only see what we want to see and hear what we want to hear. Be still, listen, that still small voice will guide you when the time is right. Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App Jesus loves you!!! 1 Newme17 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
CakesItUp 34 Posted January 1, 2017 I felt very much the same way. I was totally made up in my mind to have to surgery so that's how I took it God in prayer. I wanted it, was scared, nervous and willing to be obedient. I knew I had prayed for so any other things and this surgery was an answer to those prayers. But you know what's going on with you. The feeling of dying on the table is normal and being scared that you will be punished by death is also normal. Like other said. Listen for the holy spirit to guide you and go with it. Nothing makes response more clear than a little fasting and praying. Sent from my iPhone 1 Newme17 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Christina.Rose 287 Posted January 1, 2017 Thank you for your responses. I am searching for the answers, maybe too much? I will continue to pray and try to be open and aware of Gods message or convictions. I REALLY do appreciate all of your comments. I feel very isolated in my journey at home and hearing from believers who also have been through this process is comforting. Thank you. Sent from my SM-J700P using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites