BrookeTiffani 54 Posted December 28, 2016 I am in fear that I have PTSD from being fat. (I'm still fat, just not as fat as I was). I started this process on July 6. Had surgery 10/31. from July 6 to now, I have lost 77 pounds. I cannot see much of a difference when I look in the mirror. I can tell in clothes and sometimes pictures, and my double chin has reduced significantly from what I can tell, but when I look at myself from the side I feel like I am still over 400 lbs!! Also, even though I never go over 3 ounces and measure out my food and meal prep I feel like I am eating way too much. The feeling I have after I eat is that same guilty feeling I used to get when I would binge.I also catch myself still in the mindset of where I used to be. Say, driving home from work and having that urge to go to fast food. It's like second nature. I realize I have a food addiction. Has anyone else ever felt this way? I cannot get past the feeling that I am making no progrees, or too slow progress, even though I have had a few NSVs and the evidence shows I am progressing. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
reree6898 1,164 Posted December 28, 2016 Many people feel this way. Myself included. I've lost around 170 lbs since surgery and still have a hard time seeing the difference in myself most of the time. I have heard several others talk about how therapy has helped them with this issue. I am on the waiting list for a therapist with eating disorder training. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Who'sThere 331 Posted December 28, 2016 What you are feeling is pretty normal from everything I've read. PTSD is very serious and I'm not sure it is a fair comparison at all. Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G890A using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
BrookeTiffani 54 Posted December 28, 2016 Sorry if I didn't know a better way to explain. Thanks for your input though. What you are feeling is pretty normal from everything I've read. PTSD is very serious and I'm not sure it is a fair comparison at all.Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G890A using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Healthy_life2 8,324 Posted December 28, 2016 I'm not ashamed to admit I went to a counselor to deal with my weight loss issues. It takes time for your mind to wrap it self around you physical changes. Working on Body image, the urge to go back to old behaviors and guilt/ shame about food. Will help you to be successful long term. I wish you the best, Jenn The urge to go back to old behaviors is something Sent from my SM-G920T using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
RJrocks 69 Posted December 28, 2016 An eating disorder, yes. Emotional scarring, yes. Struggles to put your true size to reality probably. PTSD, no. Not unless you suffered a close call with death due to your size such as a heart attack. Sent from my SM-G900W8 using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nursey402 14 Posted December 28, 2016 A lot of self talk and counseling Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
BrookeTiffani 54 Posted December 29, 2016 Emotional scarring is more along the lines of what I meant. An eating disorder, yes. Emotional scarring, yes. Struggles to put your true size to reality probably. PTSD, no. Not unless you suffered a close call with death due to your size such as a heart attack.Sent from my SM-G900W8 using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
RJrocks 69 Posted December 29, 2016 Yes, I agree. I also am emotionally scared from being fat. Its not easy and perhaps counseling can help. But its not PTSD. At all. I have both. Sent from my SM-G900W8 using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nursey402 14 Posted December 30, 2016 Emotional scars for Sure Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nlmguerrero 50 Posted December 30, 2016 I had surgery two weeks ago and I feel like I didn't have surgery. I know its still extremely early but I feel like my eating isn't as restricted as it should be. I'm worried that this way not work. I'm definitely worried. Post op appointment is tomorrow so I will see what they have to say. 77 lbs is amazing by the way! Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
BrookeTiffani 54 Posted December 30, 2016 I also feel like I've never even had it. I measure three ounces and I'm like this is way too much. It's not supposed to be this big of a portion Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App Share this post Link to post Share on other sites