food funerals?

[AvaFern 3,516]

I had lots of food funerals before I had surgery. Usually they were Sunday nights (because diets start on Mondays) the 31st of the month (because diets start on the 1st), and the night of every major hurt (because clearly we were hurt because we were fat so the diet must start the next day). I also had one before my 1 week liquid diet. Your liver will not be any fattier than would otherwise be the case because two weeks before surgery you had yourself a food binge, so it really just comes down to whether it's something you feel like doing.

On an interesting note, I haven't had a food funeral since surgery and it's been 38 months. Now, if I want something, I eat it, except I eat such a small amount that there's no need to binge and go on a diet the next day because I know if I want it again in the future, a few bites is all I need and I can have it. A few weeks ago I started eating Fiber One Cookies, which is a great way to gain weight, and I found myself throwing out a leftover box on Sunday night so I wouldn't eat them on Monday. I intentionally left them in my pantry for the next two weeks instead of tossing them so I would see that I control food now, it doesn't control me.

In hindsight, I would have still had my food funeral before surgery, although I might have cried less afterward if I had known that more than three years in the future I would be the person I am now- someone who doesn't need food funerals anymore, who doesn't think about dieting the first day of every week, of every month, and after every major disappointment, and whose first thought when things went wrong isn't that if I wasn't fat and worthless things would be different.

Food funerals are ok and just like real funerals, sometimes it just means that you're getting the closure you need to move on to a better place.

[Cyrissa 9]

In hindsight, I would have still had my food funeral before surgery, although I might have cried less afterward if I had known that more than three years in the future I would be the person I am now- someone who doesn't need food funerals anymore, who doesn't think about dieting the first day of every week, of every month, and after every major disappointment, and whose first thought when things went wrong isn't that if I wasn't fat and worthless things would be different.

Food funerals are ok and just like real funerals, sometimes it just means that you're getting the closure you need to move on to a better place.

I so identify with your post! That is so me. My life has been consumed by starting the next diet, screwing it up, and then figuring out when to start the next diet after that...ever since the age of 13 (I'm now 49)...yikes! My surgery is Jan. 9 and I had my first session with the nutritionist today. I am super psyched about my surgery and the tool that I'm going to have to help me become the person I want to be. I found your post very inspiring and I hope to be like you in three years.

So for now, I'm having a few food funerals of my own because I just feel like it. Interestingly, as was eating a Wendy's double bacon cheeseburger yesterday (had a HUGE craving), I got about half way through and found it just didn't taste as good as I expected it to. Huh. Go figure. Don't really care if I eat another one any time soon (which is a good thing...lol). Same thing happened last weekend when I was eating out at a Mexican restaurant with my hubby. I was planning a BIG funeral for chili rellenos and after eating a few bites, it just wasn't all that great. I was like...ok...done with that. It's almost like my brain knows a big life change is coming and is already moving in the right direction. Weird, but I'll take it. Now...if that would only happen with the wretched french fries!!!