almost 14 months:)

neverland · September 10, 2007

Hi everybody...

I am 21 years old, and I had lap band surgery last june. It was the decision of my parents, and I was kind of forced into it, and I really had a hard time during the surgery, since it was my first surgery ever.. My weight loss was really slow at first, and there was a lot of fights in my home, though I don't really have a bad family life, there was a lot of shouting and throwing stuff around because of the stress the surgery caused... Plus, I didn't tell anyone, not even my closest friends or family, which made it harder to share. In february, I was forced into another surgery, liposuction, though it seemed too early for me, it was enough for my parents. I had to start school within a week, and I was in a lot of pain and I didn't tell anyone about it either, and the pressure was so bad.

However, now it's been more than a year, and my days throwing up are less and less. I began to understand the band better, and though I don't think I've made my peace with it totally, I lost about 30 kg, and the change has been incredible. It did not bring me love or success or immedeate popularity, and it didn't make any magic, I didn't become fit or fall in love with sports, but I picked up tennis again this summer and my instructor can't believe the difference. My self confidence is much higher, and my taste habits have changed completely. There are days I hate the band, and get really jealous of meat eaters, since for some reason, I can't tolerate it, and my band is right between my breasts, which is not the tradition, and I can sometimes feel it with my fingers, like when I sleep facedown, and it really disturbs me. Plus, my scars haven't healed at all. And not being able to share it, but having to explain my throwing up has been really hard, but still, with a lot of tales about stomach sensitivity etc, things have been going smoothly. And the reaction old friends show has been incredible.

But the best part has been the difference of my shopping. I can show almost anywhere I want now, and it has been a wonderful experience after spending my teenage years doing plus size shopping..

I did want to post a pic,but I'm not sure how.

I just wanted to share my experience, in case it is inspiration in anyway, though I never believed I could inspire anyone to do anything;)

neverland · September 10, 2007

well, then I wouldn't say 'forced', but 'very heavily encouraged':)

I wasn't really given a choice, and I never said 'I want to have surgery'. But I guess that was their last resort, and I knew they only wanted good things for me, so I didn't really resist it.