Little Comments/Big Hurts

[lauri 0]

You know, my husband gets picked on at work because he is so thin. He's a commercial plumber and most men in construction are kinda big. They actually call him names like-Gilligan, Woody and such. They always volunteer him to crawl into the small spaces and under buildings to fix others mistakes because 'he can fit'. He is often over looked when it comes time to choose a new forman. When he talks to the "higher ups" in the company, they tell him that they really need a BIG GUY for the job. I guess they want someone who can "push his weight around". I feel bad for him that he suffers from rude comments and job discrimination because of his size. It does hurt him but he rarely says anything. I guess that is why I was so upset when he said something the other night.

My note went ok-I suppose. He read it and was smiling the whole time! Then, he laid it down and started laughing! "I can't believe you threw that brownie. You shook the wall!" He hugged me and told me that he does love me. He just knows how much I want to lose weight and how mad I usually get at myself when I eat something fattening. Any who, we were able to laugh about it and I think we came to a sort of understanding. I did ask him why he just went to sleep instead of talking to me. He said that he knew I was mad and figured I went to get on the computer and talk to ya'll. "I figured after you told them what an A**Hole I was, you would feel better and come back in here." LOL

Hey! Is it Monday yet? Don't tell anyone but I weighed this morning and am at 219!!! Does that make me a teenweigher? Woo Hoo!!!

[blossom 2]

Wow, Lauri!!! If you keep this up, your gonna be a skinny girl before you get banded!!!

[lauri 0]

Can you believe that I actually started to worry yesterday that I would lose too much weight and then the insurance would have another reason not to let me have the band!? Losing has been easier with all of you here for me but I am afraid of the yo-yo! I need a band. I must admit that for the first time in my life I am beginning to feel like I really could lose the weight and keep it off because of the wonderful, encouraging friends that I have here. Thank you so much.

[DeLarla 22]

Lauri, just start rolling up quarters to put in your pockets, since the insurance company probably will deny you if you're not heavy enough.

[lauri 0]

Hey that's a good idea! I could probably eat a big Breakfast, and wear those 'heavy' clothes that I usually avoid wearing when I have to get weighed the next time I go to my dr.s appointment, too!

I've still got to find a new dr. around here that takes my insurance! I guess I will start making calls Monday.

[bushbaby 8]

Lauri About the brownie you did way better than I, I probably would have ate that peice and then the rest of the pan... I am an emotional eater. Then I would have said "See what you made me do!" lol ') Oh and I am not joking. Then my poor hubby would appologise and not know what he had done. I tell him that my weightloss is my responciblity and he is not to try and "HELP"

[lauri 0]

Jack-Sweets make me feel bad,too! But-I don't have freaked out brownie dreams! What's in that Water your drinking, anyways?

At lunch today, I looked around and so many people were eating all of this high fat/high carb stuff. You know what I did? I looked at everyone and noticed that MANY people are overweight. Strange, I have ALWAYS felt like the fattest person in a room. Today, I didn't-I wasn't. I ate a side salad at Wendy's(I couldn't even eat all of it). I felt proud of myself and I didn't get down on myself for eating unhealthy.

Hey, NSV- DH said that I was looking skinny, today! AND a lady that works in the dressing room at Wal-mart told me that I was pretty. No one has told me that in a long time! You know, I felt skinny and pretty today. Sure, I have a long way to go but I feel good about myself today.

[lauri 0]

Rica-Usually, I would have left the room, eaten the brownie and then whatever else I could find. Getting on-line with you guys really helps me.

[bushbaby 8]

I am soo glad... It has saved me on many occasions too. glas to see your better today!

[New Hope 37]

Lauri, you're doing such a good job on the "head hunger". That is the hardest part to learn. I still struggle with that one. And who knows, you might just be able to handle your weight problems on your own - without a band! Boy, wouldn't that save you a lot of stress (fighting w/ insurance co. and $$). You've done a fantastic job so far. You're already learning and using things that I didn't learn until after I got my band. You're just that far ahead of the game. Good for you!

[lauri 0]

Thank you Rica and Marie.

Marie-I am learning so much everyday. But, the thing that really has helped is realizing that there are other people-smart, funny, loving people that understand what I am going through because they have been there themselves. I don't feel alone anymore. If you guys can do it - I can too-with your help that is!

[New Hope 37]

That really is the key...other people striving for the same thing you are and encouraging each other along the way. Friends that you can share a little NSV with, or ask for a boost because you've had a bad day. If an ache or pain is bothering you, you can compare it to others and get some advice how to handle it. Our little cyberfamily! I know my DH isn't able to appreciate the little accomplishments like ya'll do. And Lauri, you help others on here just as much. It's a two-way street - of giving and taking.