It is really me?

[choicemun 111]

Hi everyone.

Is been so long since I have been on here life has been crazy. I am 4months out since surgery and down 70lbs and I feel great. I also feel with the changes of my body that I as a person am starting to change and I don't know if I like that at all.

I am going to give you all a lil background about myself this may be long so I apologize ahead of time.

I have been over weight my whole life and at 19 I got married had my first at 20 and now 4kids and 11yrs later I am finally starting to lose weight other then putting it on. And if that wasn't keeping me busy enough for the first time I am not a stay at home mom Only I am starting my own business, and I feel like my life is no longer the same I thought I would be able to deal with all the changes a lot easier but it seems like I am not.

I see myself questions everything and everyone around me everyday I see myself forming and changing to a person I don't recognize and I don't feel good about that. Before the surgery I watched a YouTube video that said "you are not the same person as you are when you are fat and you will change", I knew it was coming but I don't like the person I am becoming. I am angry then I have ever been I don't want to be around my husband he shows me so much love and is there for me but I want him far away from me, and I can't tell you why I feel like that and it scares me to death.

I have so far to go until I reach my goal weight I hope only good feels come with that because I am afraid if I continue to feel the feels I have now my life is going to go upside down and I don't know now if that would be for good or bad. I don't know how I feel about myself so how am I supposed to know how I feel about the people around me? I don't know if this makes any sense to anyone, but this place has always given me good advice and I am hoping I can get some now.

Thank you for reading

All the best xoxoxo

[sprocket 104]

Losing large amounts of weight fast can cause hormonal chaos, especially for ladies. It may settle down as your body evens out. It sounds though that you would benefit with meeting with a therapist to go over all these feelings and develop coping strategies.

[Gripp 34]

I pray the best for you. Please don't leave your husband especially if a great person

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[Frenchie1977 262]

Remember that you are going through some serious hormonal changes and that can skew your perspective. Ask yourself if your husband a good and loving man. If the answer is yes then give him a chance, maybe you just need to let him get to know the new you that you have created. Above all remember that this too shall pass, your feelings and emotions will level out, you just have to be patient with yourself and your husband.