Lies we told ourselves when we were fat

[Sajijoma 1,324]

The biggest lie I told myself was that my weight wasn't having a negative impact on my life. That all I needed was more willpower and I could pull it together. That my joints really weren't being damaged because some of us just were born to carry a heavier load(saying this as I battle my dislocated knee caused by carrying that heavy load for so long). How bad could it be if I can still jump up and down? This one candy, ice cream, piece of cake won't send me railing over the edge into a binge. I could go on and on. In hindsight, I think we all do these things. Mainly it's a coping mechanism to get us through this unbearable place we are in. It's easier to say "it's out of my control" or "it doesn't apply to me" because then we don't have to take responsibility for where we arenas how hopeless we feel to change it.

[Pondlife 42]

I'll just eat whatever and however much this time but next time I'll get serious. Funny how it's never next time for me it's always still that one last time.