The Payoff

[gowalking 10,790]

So yesterday at work, we had a staff meeting and sitting on the conference room table were two boxes of Dunkin Donuts. No one wanted to take one but I knew everyone was eyeing them. I went into the kitchen and brought back a bunch of knives and said these were for those interested in half a donut..or a quarter. I then proceeded to start to cut away a piece for myself and one of my colleagues said the following: 'Sure, just eat a little piece...spoken just like the size 2 that she is'. She meant it in a lighthearted way...not nasty at all and as this woman was a recent hire, she did not know me at any other size (btw...I'm not a 2) and just presumed I was a dainty eater and wouldn't have a problem with a piece of donut rather than the whole thing.

Like I said in the topic title, this is the payoff for me. I want people to know me as I am now, and not as I was. The obese person I was before is hopefully dead and buried. I like this version of me so much more. It's not just that I look better...it's that I feel better, I'm more positive, more outgoing, more comfortable in my skin, etc, etc.

No...life is not perfect. Weight loss has made my life easier but I still have issues, worries, concerns. It's just easier to deal with this stuff when my size is no longer a factor.

This exchange yesterday gave me the hope that the size I am now will be forever, my new normal.

[sharkgirl 251]

That is great! Thank you for sharing.

[mngreeneyes 674]

Congrats and what a great feeling. I am still in the "OMG I almost didn't recognize you, you've changed so much" phase. I am enjoying it, but can't wait to be at the phase you are at!

Enjoy!

pam

[jane13 2,256]

That's the phase I am hoping for soon. I am still getting the "are you, ok?" questions...

[SeahawksFan 444]

I absolutely love your post.

[Dub 9,930]

Great story and such a funny reaction from your coworker.

Great strategy to suggest the knife for doughnuts. I've never considered doing that.....a portion of a doughnut vs the whole freaking thing at once.

So glad to be past that mess, too.

[ocgirl15 667]

Love this story!

[needtorecover 574]

Must've felt good to (likely) be the only one not agonizing over the temptation of the donuts. Pre-WLS me would've grabbed two of them and felt guilty about it later. Now you could set a tray of freshly iced donuts straight from the fryer in front of me and I wouldn't be any more interested in them than I would be a slice of white bread. Pretty amazing since donuts were a trigger food for me.

I face the donuts every day, too, because of where I work (at a college dorm with a tray of fresh donuts laid out each morning in the dining hall). I walk right past them and get hard boiled eggs and fruit instead feels good!

[Dub 9,930]

Must've felt good to (likely) be the only one not agonizing over the temptation of the donuts. Pre-WLS me would've grabbed two of them and felt guilty about it later. Now you could set a tray of freshly iced donuts straight from the fryer in front of me and I wouldn't be any more interested in them than I would be a slice of white bread. Pretty amazing since donuts were a trigger food for me.

I face the donuts every day, too, because of where I work (at a college dorm with a tray of fresh donuts laid out each morning in the dining hall). I walk right past them and get hard boiled eggs and fruit instead feels good!

Outstanding !!!!!

[Valentina 2,642]

Close your eyes. Take a deep cleansing breathe. Remember.

How's that feel????

Aaaaaahhh Haaaaaaa moment.

[Gaylene Davison 43]

So yesterday at work, we had a staff meeting and sitting on the conference room table were two boxes of Dunkin Donuts. No one wanted to take one but I knew everyone was eyeing them. I went into the kitchen and brought back a bunch of knives and said these were for those interested in half a donut..or a quarter. I then proceeded to start to cut away a piece for myself and one of my colleagues said the following: 'Sure, just eat a little piece...spoken just like the size 2 that she is'. She meant it in a lighthearted way...not nasty at all and as this woman was a recent hire, she did not know me at any other size (btw...I'm not a 2) and just presumed I was a dainty eater and wouldn't have a problem with a piece of donut rather than the whole thing.

Like I said in the topic title, this is the payoff for me. I want people to know me as I am now, and not as I was. The obese person I was before is hopefully dead and buried. I like this version of me so much more. It's not just that I look better...it's that I feel better, I'm more positive, more outgoing, more comfortable in my skin, etc, etc.

No...life is not perfect. Weight loss has made my life easier but I still have issues, worries, concerns. It's just easier to deal with this stuff when my size is no longer a factor.

This exchange yesterday gave me the hope that the size I am now will be forever, my new normal.

Wow! I can so relate to that. Well said.