Black Don't Crack

[1Cor2:9 193]

Yesterday I had the fine pleasure of having my three month follow up, an appointment with my PCP, and blood work to check my levels. I had the follow up first. It seems that most of that appointment was centered around how I feel about my progress. Before I get into how I feel let me share with you what my progress has been. I am very close to being 70lbs down three months out from surgery. I had no complications. I mostly stick to the plan that was given to me by the dietitian. I drink Water pretty regularly and take my Vitamins everyday. I work out for at least an hour four to five times a week most weeks. According to my team I am losing weight at a rate that is faster than most patients they see in their office.

How do I feel about it? Well I am not entirely sure. I know that I am not upset about losing weight. At the same time I know that I am still obese. When I was heavier I could do all the same things I am doing now. Perhaps I can do them somewhat better now, but it is not as if I was immobile and now I can walk. When I was heavier I still had to walk the dog and walk to get all my errands done. Having said that, climbing stairs is less of a pain for which I am thankful. The nurse said, your blood pressure is prefect, but my blood pressure was fine before I had surgery. When the nurse said that my blood pressure is better than his I replied with, " with black don't crack!" Haha. That is why I am losing fast because I'm black! (Calm down love, I am joking, My race has nothing to do with my progress) Do you feel happier? I have a natural melancholic personality, so no. I am just not at the place yet in which I feel accomplished about what has happened. so far or shall I say fully accomplished. It will come along it just is not today. I can live with that as long as I do not waste the gift I have been given. They asked me if I wanted to speak on my "success". I have not gotten to the point in which I feel successful. I am not a year out yet let's see if I am success in a year, two years, three years time-- twenty. What do I have to share with anyone? Do what you been told by the team? Ha! I made a deal with them if I am 100lbs down by June 15 that I would speak at the support group.

My PCP on the other hand was support and not as per her usual. You need to work out more. Oh, I do? Then she showed me exercises that she thinks I should do. Now people I have no intention of doing them. I believe that what I am doing is fine. Yes, I will need to change things over time, but for the most part think I am okay. She also told me to stop drinking soda, but I do not drink soda and I did not drink soda even before surgery. Sidenote, I love how people assume that obese people just like to eat and drink everything without preference. There were all kinds of things I did not eat before I had surgery. Like soda, brownies, cotton candy, saltwater taffy, coffee, tea, meat, shellfish, and so on. But let me get back to the point. My PCP is not great at listening, so I try to take things in stride. My thought was I know I exercise more than you old lady. Tell me to my face again I need to work out more, but I did not say those things.

I know I am going to make it. One day my obesity will be my past. And the fact that black don't crack will help me as well. Ha! had to bring it back one more time.

[Ashoryb 52]

I loved reading this. It's very eye opening and I love that you are taking it day by day. I do hope you get to the point you feel accomplished because I belive that you would really help people by speaking at a seminar. Keep up the great work! !!

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[VSGAnn2014 12,992]

I feel your pain about the unwarranted assumptions some people (including MDs) make about obese people and/or people in general. You had FAR more self control than I would have in that situation.

Sounds like you're doing GREAT on all fronts.

[1Cor2:9 193]

Thank you!

I feel your pain about the unwarranted assumptions some people (including MDs) make about obese people and/or people in general. You had FAR more self control than I would have in that situation.

Sounds like you're doing GREAT on all fronts.

[2goldengirl 2,076]

I would really take the time to educate your PCP on her assumptions vs. your reality. It will help you to advocate for your truth, and help her be a better doctor. Win-win there.

[Mary2016 55]

I hear you. I am preop and my BP runs 110-120/60-70. Everyone is always shocked. And the food....my downfall is my snacking on lots of carbs, mostly at night. But my meals are healthy. I don't drink soda, eat fast food. And I'm not lazy. I work 10-11 hour days and am busy many nights of the week. But for some, their perception is different. But 70 pounds is so great a boost for your health. You might not feel tremendously different, but your body thanks you. Keep it up!

[1Cor2:9 193]

That lady does not listen. I am however going to ask my team about a team about finding a PCP who is used to treating bariatric patients.

I would really take the time to educate your PCP on her assumptions vs. your reality. It will help you to advocate for your truth, and help her be a better doctor. Win-win there.