Self sabotage and failings

[change4life 3]

Anyone else feel like this?

[lisacaron 5,075]

Are you saying that you feel as though you are failing and self sabotaging?

What are some of the things you find going wrong?

[change4life 3]

I do yes. I was banded in 08 had issues with insurance wanting not cover the fills and then the nurses laughed at me when it took me a year to get my second fill saying you mean 1 fill a year didn't work so I gave up. Those were the people who were supposed to understand me and help me if they were laughing why try. I never went back. It's been a yo yo nightmare ever since

[change4life 3]

I currently feel little to no restrictions I can eat anything and do. Then I feel guilty

[gowalking 10,790]

Oh sweetie...your band is not working the way it should. Nothing to feel guilty about. Can you get a new doctor who will be better suited to your needs? I bet once your band is working, you will not have these kind of issues.

[change4life 3]

I have an appointment set for 3-10 I'm waiting to hear back of my insurance will cover it bc all of this was before I had them. I hope it all goes through its been like 7 years since I've seen anyone about my band

[lisacaron 5,075]

@@change4life let us know how things go once you see the Dr. Good news is that your ready to get back on track again and you have taken the first steps.

[Binx125 15]

I'm in the same boat but keep trying. As long as you keep trying. Going back to my doc next week and actually excited to start a fresh.

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[Skippin'69 17]

How much are the fills? Does insurance generally pay for them?

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[mrsjec 10]

Yes, I feel ya..I was banded 3 years ago and lost 100 pounds...now I find every excuse to skip the gym and I just sat here and had a bowl of ice cream. I feel like a failure and disgusted with myself. I can't even dry my pants cause they won't fit it I do and I won't buy new clothes. Going to see if dr can offer any advice.

[gowalking 10,790]

Yes, I feel ya..I was banded 3 years ago and lost 100 pounds...now I find every excuse to skip the gym and I just sat here and had a bowl of ice cream. I feel like a failure and disgusted with myself. I can't even dry my pants cause they won't fit it I do and I won't buy new clothes. Going to see if dr can offer any advice.

This is why maintenance is a whole other beast. I'm also three years out and also struggling. Going for a fill on Thursday and hoping it will help. Also need a head re-set to get back to positive thoughts and actions. I remember so vividly, reading about vets who started to gain and struggle and thought...oh no, not me. Well just goes to show that this is really and truly a life long battle even with the surgery.

[sunshine64 0]

HI folks.This is my first post. I was taken into hospital last year and had my gastric band removed at the same time as my gall bladder . I am flying with no safety net. While I was in hospital all my vitals were checked. I was in for 3 weeks. They needed to prepare me to take out the band and gall bladder. The surgeon that fit the band was in England uk. I live in Scotland uk.

The band had fill in it and the surgeon thought it had been empty for two years or more. just didn't reach the sweet spot,ever. I ranged from not eating at all (one of my sore points ) to eating once a day. I couldn't keep much down.

Now I am 352 pounds and previously I was 403 pounds. The weight loss is recent since the band came out. Those 3 weeks saw me stay in my room. Paranoid and hoping for a gastric bypass. The dr cant take me in the NHS as the funding only covers diabetics. I am back on the hospital diet. It allows me to eat nutritious food. I have my groceries delivered. I am an addict. If it is not in the house. I can't eat it. I don't know what to do. Anger is my burden. I turn to food when I am not able to speak to a person that has hurt me. I let most things go but ive had 3 days of pushing my boundaries with food. An accident left me with 3 damaged discs in my spine. I walk with 2 canes or a walker to sit after 15 steps. I need to address a bad relationship with an x. The anger is eating away at me. He wont acknowledge my need to walk away. He doesn't take no. I have an injunction but he is cunning. I am going to go under. I live on my own and find it difficult to go out. I am on my own. In pain and cant exercise much. I find walking difficult. I know other dr's would operate but I spent all of 11,000 pounds on a gastric band. So more savings. Insurance doesn't cover bypass in this country and I wasted 11,000 pounds on a band years ago. I am frustrated and know I have limited choices. I hope someone understands. I want to deal with the anger and move on from being manipulated. Does anyone have insite to the not eating and the anger issues.Sorry for the pity party. sunshine 64.

Edited May 3, 2016 by sunshine64

[sunshine64 0]

Believe in something better !

I just needed to get that out there. Even if the universe is the only thing that heard me I feel ready to deal with the need to speak up and reclaim my right to say no to abuse and make healthier choices. I just noticed the WLS MAGAZINE ARTICLE.......................GET THAT ANGER OUT !........................YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYaaaayyyyyyyy.

Edited May 3, 2016 by sunshine64