This Week I Failed Part II

[1Cor2:9 193]

Communication and social media are two very interesting things.

I would like to first say thank you to everyone that sent encouraging words regarding the first post. I am thankful for your willingness to be helpful. Second this post will be an attempt to clear up somethings. I have seem to set off some fires with some and I hope this will make things better.

Personal disclaimer- I am about say something that I may fail at sometime down the road. When I read things online especially social media I take into consideration one unshakable truth-- I simply do not know the whole story. I only know a snap shot at best. I get it we read something and it triggers some sort emotional response. The problem is that emotional response is often very much blind sided.

This last week was rough for many reasons. To be clear I am not going to spell out the all details, but just take my word for it was. I did not exercise as often as I know I should. I was not happy about that. I felt a bit of shame about how my week went. Some of things that went down were squarely my fault, i.e. lack of exercise, and others were not. Part of my processing of that feeling was expressing it through a post. After my post I looked online to see if I could find suitable exercise ball DVDs. I found one. Sometime over the weekend I am going to buy. I am excited about using an exercise ball because it seems fun. I thought you know maybe you need to move on from the Leslie Sansone. That is the plan for this upcoming week. In the midst of the shame I decided maybe I should try some seat exercising so that while I am watching a video or movie I can still get my fitness on. I found a video that I thought I could use for that.

I once read in one of the bariatric books that if you fail at a goal, just make another one. So even though I was not pleased with how last week went I knew on the other side of the shame I would regroup and make another goal. My shame did not tempt me to throw in the towel or self hate. I do not think it is a sign of low self esteem. Even with the unpleasant feelings I did not come to the conclusion that I hate myself.

If I offended you with the last This Week I Failed, I apologize. Just simply realize this:

--Snap shots are simply that

--Shame is an emotional not a mark of ones moral standing/personality

--I'm fine

--I got me a plan together

--This is not a self esteem issue

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Do not apologize for being honest. I identified with what you were going through, and I am willing to bet good money that I am not the only one. Don't apologize for being vulnerable. It is one of the hardest things in life to expose yourself in that manner. You are a warrior for sharing them, and for not giving up! You are a child of God, a daughter of the Father. You are loved and you are worthy. Much Love!