Is there any hope?

[LipstickLady 25,682]

When someone makes a heart wrenching decision like suicide, it is THEIR decision. I know it's easier said than done, but the weight of his actions should not lie on your shoulders. You had this surgery for you, and now is the time to fulfill the advantages of that surgery.

You do not need anyone but you to make this right. If you are determined, you can succeed.

[Valentina 2,642]

Five years later, I know.

It isn't easy now, but it was impossible for me to accept then.

I was just looking for a wee bit of support and understanding. I guess those are difficult items to give.

[Inner Surfer Girl 12,015]

Five years later, I know.

It isn't easy now, but it was impossible for me to accept then.

I was just looking for a wee bit of support and understanding. I guess those are difficult items to give.

I read both posts as the before and after your discovering his suicide. My heart aches for you (and him, too).

No, not everyone is capable of providing the support you need, but some are. Even though he was not in a position to do so, there are many others (friends, family, and even strangers on the Internet) can.

How are you doing this week by the way?

[Valentina 2,642]

Thank you for trying to understand. If I understood his suicide and my reaction to it, I wouldn't have needed the 4 1/2yrs of therapy.

Thank you again.

This week, well since Jan 12th, I've lost 11 pounds. I've gone back to a Protein shake for Breakfast, greed yogurt for lunch and an "allowable" dinner with a green salad topped with nutritional yeast.

I am having trouble drinking enough. I've never been a big Fluid consumer, but I'm working at it.

I am going three times a week for aqua therapy for my back since spinal fusion. After that I will join the pool.

Thank you again, for asking about my progress. It means a great deal to me.

[Heather I 500]

I am so very sorry for your loss and trauma. God bless you. I have no words for what you've been through, but I hope you can take care of yourself now and find peace.

[MzStockton 182]

PRAYER IS THE KEY!!!! God loves you and never will leave you....stop blaming yourself for something that was obviously out of your control. I'm sorry for your loss and all you have be through, but put your trust and faith in the Lord!!!! You can do this, claim it and daily speak positive words in your life, you are worth this fight!!!

[Valentina 2,642]

PRAYER IS THE KEY!!!! God loves you and never will leave you....stop blaming yourself for something that was obviously out of your control. I'm sorry for your loss and all you have be through, but put your trust and faith in the Lord!!!! You can do this, claim it and daily speak positive words in your life, you are worth this fight!!!

Such kind and true words. I will read them often and try to follow your advise always.

[Inner Surfer Girl 12,015]

Thank you for trying to understand. If I understood his suicide and my reaction to it, I wouldn't have needed the 4 1/2yrs of therapy.

Thank you again.

This week, well since Jan 12th, I've lost 11 pounds. I've gone back to a Protein shake for Breakfast, greed yogurt for lunch and an "allowable" dinner with a green salad topped with nutritional yeast.

I am having trouble drinking enough. I've never been a big Fluid consumer, but I'm working at it.

I am going three times a week for aqua therapy for my back since spinal fusion. After that I will join the pool.

Thank you again, for asking about my progress. It means a great deal to me.

This is great to hear.

[Jv4ever 8]

Trust in God.

[Valentina 2,642]

Trust in God.

He's gotten me here. I am not alone.