I am my own worst enemy

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I'm not looking to give excuses as I know, in the end, it all comes down to me.

My HW was May. I hit 291. (I'm 5'5.5") Now, it was with some Fluid retention after being at theme parks for a few days, but it was still an eye opening moment as I had never been that close to 300. I lost down to 272 this summer. I decided to go the route of RNY as I was pretty stuck and was sick of being fat. Before my first appt, I was able to ditch another 5lbs so my official SW was 267. The surgeon wants me to lose 25lbs for surgery. I've lost another 5ish. I've been stuck here since, 262. I I keep doing ok with eating for a couple of days. Then I completely make wrong decisions for a day or two. Even though it's just a couple of days, it will set me back to 262. My preop diet will be 2 full weeks of no food, only BA shakes. I'm getting frustrated with myself and am beginning to wonder if I'll lose that last 20lbs for surgery. 242 is where he wants me. I haven't been that low since 3 kids ago! I've started crossfit and have been doing that for about 3wks now. I swear, I think I've lost an inch on my gut but no poundage. The office swears it's not to test devotion. They say it's purely to shrink the liver. The dietician told me not to stress it cause I'll lose it in the preop diet. Another counselor, though, told me to lose another 10lbs BEFORE the preop. I want to shout at them "If I could just drop weight like that, I wouldn't be here!" lol

Edited October 31, 2015 by Kiesha Shevokas

[Djmohr 6,965]

What you are going through is completely normal and yes, frustrating too.

I did the Protein shake pre op diet for 10 days and lost 13lbs. You just have to follow the plan as hard as you can. Shrinking your liver is the most important thing for a safe surgery.

Keep your eye on the prize and you will get through it.

[Inner Surfer Girl 12,015]

Just a thought, but CrossFit may be too intense for what you are trying to accomplish right now. It may be a great choice for you in the long term, but if you are trying to hit a target on the scale to have surgery, the scale may not cooperate. Definitely talk to your surgeon and NUT to see what they suggest. Your surgeon may not care if the scale numbers are higher if your body fat composition improves but it is worth getting his or her opinion.

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When I told them I started, they just said great!

I've dropped another couple of pounds. My preop starts next week. My main goal with starting the crossfit now was to get my excuses out of the way. I wanted to find a place, start forming relationships there, find a child care option I like, and just get into a routine I can maintain and get back to.

[heather5565 959]

When push comes to shove and you are on your pre-op diet, you'll kill it!

You wanna know why? Because the official countdown to your surgery is on! And you will push thru it and conquer! Everyday you will be saying to yourself "I'm almost there! Only ___ more days of this and then my surgery!"

The countdown will keep you on track.

You can do this!

They aren't going to punish you or cancel your surgery if you don't lose the 20 pounds.

It really is about shrinking the liver so the chances of a successful surgery is just that much more greater.

GOOD LUCK and keep us posted on how your Sx went, okay!

Edited November 15, 2015 by heather5565

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Thanks!