The Surgery You Honestly Dont Want

[Bigguy9347 16]

Gotcha on the title... It is hard to explain but at the Same time it is easily understood.. I started my WLS journey in January of this year. Had Many many obsticles and by a literal freak coincidence I stopped by my surgeons office and They said hey do want to have surgery next week.. I was like aaahh Yeah I have been waiting 10 months... So I get schedueled for surgery the 13th of october and I do my Pre Op appointment with the Surgeon and Nutrition and I was asked a question. A question that up until this time I really didnt truthfully answer for myself... The question was.... Are you sure that this is what you want to do??? It was as if I had never even thought of that before.. I set there for a few moments and asnwered as honestly as I possibly could... NO I said I dont want to do this.. And if anyone has answered yes they do they are Lying... I need to do this.. I cant make it without a drastic change in my life that I am not able to do on my own.. I enjoy food to much and I have made it an Idol of sorts in my life. I love to eat. and I love to eat alot... And because of my addiction I have a partial foot amputation , I have Congestive Heart Failure , Diabetes , High Blood Pressure , Neuropathy , and a Host of other ailments and I am well under 40. I take 16 meds 3 times a day. And people think Heroin is addictive... I have finnaly realized and Accepted that I cant do it on my own However much I Honestly Dont want this surgery I cant afford Not to. I am excited to see what life is like at a normal size.. I mean my screen name is Bigguy. I have always been Big. I can remember going into the 5th grade at 10 or 11 and I weighed over 200 lbs. My new Journey in life starts in Just a few short days.. Well lets refraize that. My Journey has already started... My Overhaul will be performed in a few days... I am excited , Scared , Nervous , and Happy... I am happy that soon I know I wont be taking a handfull of pills. I am excited to be able to buy my cloths from a regular store, I am scared that I may fail , and I am nervous because Ive never experianced such a change that I am beginning..

[kvoneye 210]

Good luck with your "Overhaul". I get my new start next week. I too don't want this surgery because I love food. I've been struggling with the liquid diet. I've cheated more than I should, but yesterday was a new, new start for me. My biggest fear is never having the foods I love to eat anymore. I hope you have a smooth recovery. I'll be thinking of you and rest of our was buddies for October.

[RNYDawn 160]

Good luck!!! So excited for your life to change for the better!

[shanshine89 6]

Really proud of you.you won't regret it.it will be hard but very worth it????

[Sojourner 2,446]

It's a big decision, and a major commitment to be taken very seriously. Probably more so than even choosing to get married. But it reads that you are approaching this life changing event well grounded and understanding that literally your life depends on moving forward.

Good luck to you, there will be some days more difficult than others. Keep your focus on the prize of improved health, and a positive support network around you.

Best wishes for a very successful journey.