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I am very sorry I haven't been in to chat and visit with everyone. Unfortunately the lapband and weight loss has been the furthest from my mind as of late.

My most favorite aunt has been suffering for a long time with cancer, they recently told her there was nothing more they could do for her, that she had 10 days to 10 weeks, go home drink martinis and enjoy the rest of your life. She did. And she left us Wednesday.

I have been an emotional roller coaster since. I want to feel good about this. Finally she isnt suffering, there is no pain in eating and drinking, no pain in her body. But we (her entire extended family) were just not ready to let her go.

I started the first day with Cookies, but soon started feeling like I needed to DO something. So I drained all 5000 gallons of my pool and leveled the ground beneth it properly, in the 102 degree (heat index) heat. The more the sweat poured off me the better I felt.

Unfortunatly this hasnt made a dent in my weight but right now I just dont care. As long as I am moving and working I am ok. If I stop and be still I loose it. If I am alone, I loose it. And she would be very upset with me for that. So I work my butt off so I don't think about it.

This has been my life lately. I will be back soon, I just need some time to get over this.

All my best!

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So so so so so sorry for your loss, Sissy. Life sometimes interrupts our journey. I'll say a special prayer for you and your family. It's okay to cry and feel the loss, too. I know it hurts so much when you're still, but it's okay to feel her loss in your life. *HUG*

Nathalie

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I just want to say I am sorry for your loss. My dad died from cancer and I was with him everyday and was holding his hand when he passed. I didn't want him to go but loved him enough that I was glad he was no longer in pain. I will say a prayer that God gives you peace.

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