Approved - but Should I Go through with it?

[time2live4me 6]

Wwboy, I can so relate to your feelings in your first initial post. My surgery is on Monday. I have made myself a wreck reading and overthinking every possible issue/complication that might happen! Can you share with me what made you finally decide you were doing the right thing?

My concerns go from the worst possible outcome (dying on the table) to just flat out loving food so much I'm afraid I will miss not being able to eat the things I love. Feeling so conflicted

Edited January 14, 2016 by time2live4me

[wwboy 141]

Wwboy, I can so relate to your feelings in your first initial post. My surgery is on Monday. I have made myself a wreck reading and overthinking every possible issue/complication that might happen! Can you share with me what made you finally decide you were doing the right thing?

My concerns go from the worst possible outcome (dying on the table) to just flat out loving food so much I'm afraid I will miss not being able to eat the things I love. Feeling so conflicted

You know, a big piece of the puzzle for me was listening to the responses of people on this thread...one person remarked: "it's risk vs. reward". That really stuck with me. The more I thought about it and prayed about it, the more I came to accept that NOT getting surgery was not a zero-risk proposition...which I think is our tendency as people. Staying put had its own risks. And as I weighed my options, it became clear that the risk of surgery (while precipitous) was actually smaller than the risk of not getting surgery -- and of course the potential rewards of surgery completely dwarf the "reward" (if you could call it that) of continuing my old path.

Another thing I thought about was all the conversations I had with trusted friends and mentors before I even got to this place in the process. About 8 months ago is when I started thinking about getting surgery. I didn't entertain the thought until I had long conversations with my most important allies in life. Each and every one of them concluded that they thought it was right for me. While I don't just automatically do what other people think I should, I'm not dumb enough to imagine that I can't benefit from the advice of those I trust. It didn't make sense to question all of their advice and support just before it was 'go time' because I got cold feet.

I wrote another related thread to this one...an update after my first surgery (I ended up having 2...read the post to see the details (http://www.bariatricpal.com/topic/356802-updated-approved-but-should-i-go-through-with-it-a-second-time/).

What I can say now, is that I'm 4 weeks post-op today. And so far very happy with my decision. The negative side-effects are present. But I can deal with them. I've lost almost 60lbs overall since last April and I'm down 22 or so since surgery. I weigh less than I did as a senior in high school, my clothes are falling off, and I feel so much more physically active and 'able'... It's glorious. I'm off of my BP meds, metformin, etc. And I'm sure I'll get to quit using my CPAP within the next year. One month out, I'd do it again in a heartbeat.

[time2live4me 6]

Heading to the other link now