I feel very guilty and upset

[Helen233 24]

Yesterday I saw my oncology surgeon. While I was undergoing testing to have a gastric bypass they found a cancerous tumor in my stomach. Because of this I had to have a gastric sleeve. I got some bad news yesterday at my doctors office. They said the cancer is high risk for return and I will need Chemo.

Here's the part that bothers me.

Hubby took me out after to eat.

I had Soup and a Smal scoop of egg salad

Then ordered cake I was so upset I ordered cake and ate it. Not the whole thing at once but throughout the day I picked at it. Then I did not have my Protein shake for dinner because I had had the cake.

I need some encouragement please. I am three weeks postop. I think I am down about 25 pounds.

[imsoglad56 402]

The fact that you even posted this is a good sign. You know you did something you shouldn't have done, and you're admitting it. Now, just move on. You got hit with an emotional bomb. Would I have done the same? Maybe, maybe not, but as someone who is recovering from using food as a crutch, I can certainly understand why you did.

You've got this. You can do this.

Good luck with the chemo.

[Babbs 14,680]

Uh, you just got a cancer diagnosis. You get a pass from me.

But really, use this as an opportunity to get healthy and eat healthy. Putting real, nutritious food in your body instead of sugar and processed foods will help you get through the chemo a little easier. Being at a fighting weight will help you heal and fight, also.

Good luck to you! We are all here for you if you need to rant or just talk about things. I will be thinking about you!

[*Lexie* 1,486]

Hey, it was a piece of cake and not a whole cake. I agree with @@Babbs that being at a healthier weight can help you. Chemo has come a long way, do what you need to do and focus on your diet as a distraction.

[AvaFern 3,516]

You had a terrible day, enjoy your cake and start over again the next day. There are still plenty of times where I eat my feelings, albeit in smaller portions. A few weeks ago after a difficult day I ate a snack size portion of ice cream and I haven't had any since. There is nothing wrong with the occassional slip-up.

I will think good, positive thoughts for your quick and complete recovery.

[Tssiemer1 549]

I think you're allowed a bad day or two after that news. I'm sorry you're going through this. My mom had cancer and chemo and it was rough on her! I can't imagine having gastric surgery on top of it too.

[kimby1029 119]

I'm with Babbs on this. You had a piece of cake. Was it the best plan? No. Can you move forward from here? Yep! Go back to plan. Eating as low in refined foods and carbs as possible will likely help you heal from the chemo too. Prayers for you.

Kim

[Mom26 313]

Chemo prayers to you. As a person who owns a cake company, ANYONE with news like that gets a free pass on cake. Hugs to you.

[Bean80128 80]

Free pass! Of course you did something to show yourself some love-you just slipped and did it your old way. Maybe next time you need some self love get a facial. You obviously already committed to take care of yourself since you got the surgery-this ol' cancer is just a blip! Hugs to you...

[jhclikesshopping@gmail.com 285]

First, You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Second, we have ups and downs... Cake with cancer could be a little of both. I agree - it's amazing that you posted. I would not have the courage to post and own up to my mistake (and I did one last week with a chocolate nugget - there I did it). Take this as a point of reflection and move on. You have a new journey - don't let food get in your way. Focus on what you need and take it... food you do not need.... trust us, we know.

Good luck and please keep us up to date on how you are doing and if you need anything!!!!

[Sharon1964 2,530]

You are one amazing lady. Wishes for lots of courage and strength to you. And you definitely get the pass on the cake.

[Helen233 24]

Thank you all for your love and support. I really appreciate it so much!

[del112 62]

Good for you my dear!

Wish I could have a small bite but these things are not sitting well with me.

I'll be praying for you and your strength during this period. May God turn things around in your favor.

[eprince3840 11]

Praying for you!

[Helen233 24]

Thank you all so much!