Chylyn7 26 Posted August 15, 2015 I really disappoint myself on how much I let myself go! I can't stand to look at my reflection in the mirror not take pictures. Surgery can't come quick enough. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
belaby18 8 Posted August 15, 2015 I feel you. I felt the same way, these 2 weeks with the whole pre op diet has me feeling different. Can't wait for it. You'll be ok, the day will come Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
HopeandAgony 566 Posted August 15, 2015 I know how you feel. I avoid mirrors as often as I can. I refuse pictures. When I spoke to the surgeon and we talked about doing this for my physical health I also told him how much this impacts my mental health. I have no self confidence. I have no self respect. As much as I try to love me for who and how I am I just have never been able to. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Remix 153 Posted August 24, 2015 (edited) You all sound like I did a few months ago. I want to cry remembering how awful I felt, how draining the self torture was. I was constantly thinking about the weight and hating myself for letting myself get so big. 24/7 I was thinking about how others saw me and how unattractive I was. I had surgery July 11 and have done amazing. I wish I could hug that me from before surgery and all of you. It will get better, I promise. Do the work and you will be free from the shackles you are feeling. You'll be proud of yourself for doing it and you will feel happy & free. Until then, try to be kind to yourself. You are already beautiful and amazing. Edited August 24, 2015 by Remix Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Knitchic 97 Posted August 24, 2015 Ugh I know what you mean. I hate to look in the mirror. I totally avoid social outings because I think everyone is looking at me thinking how fat I have gotten. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites