Anxiety overload

[RNsleever715 117]

My surgery is 9 days away. I am freaking out! I have so many anxieties and worries... Will I fail? Will I have complications? Will I be kidnapped in Mexico and sold as a sex slave? Jk... Kinda ????

I am a low BMI (just over 30)... I worry I won't lose the weight. I worry my reflux will be worse. I worry that I'm being selfish for spending so much money on an "elective" procedure. I really love food. I love trying new food when hubby & I travel... I love sweets... I mean duh. This is how I got here!

I just feel super girly emotional right now & wanna cry. My husband is being supportive but if I even mention not having the procedure to him he says he wouldn't. Of course he wouldnt, he doesn't struggle with his weight...

I dunno. Guess I needed to vent. I am just worried about EVERYTHING.

I should also add that he's going with me to Mexico, and I'm worried we may kill each other the first few days I'm without food, lol!!!

[OKCPirate 5,323]

My surgery was in Mexico, and most of my friends thought I was nuts, but when you do self pay, they offered the best service for the best price. My facility was great and the care was wonderful.

I was scared to death as the date got closer, but so dang thankful when it was done. It is a process. There will be change. The sleeve is just a tool, not a magic wand. It is a new beginning and there is a great deal deal of discovery ahead, I was blown away at the many self discoveries I made about my relationship with food that I didn't know I had. Be open to the truth and doors will open. May sound kind of New Age, but this is a physical as well as mental and spiritual journey. Fear is just a signal that something new is about to happen.

Good luck and congratulations on having the courage to begin a new chapter in your life. You can archive the "fat years" soon.

[The Candidate 3,215]

I think you're fine on all accounts, except maybe the sex slave issue. ????

[OKCPirate 5,323]

Until there is a shortage of BBW hookers, I don't think anyone should worry about the sex slave issue. I'd just concentrate on walking, eating slower and trying out Protein drinks.

[shellyd88 463]

I think it's totally normal to freak out and be scared it's a life changing thing to do u can eat again I promise it will take time to work up to things you ate before but u absolutely can and will eat normally again now by normally I don't mean making a habit of eating high fat high calorie high sugar foods that got us this way to begin with I'm close up five months post op sleeve I can eat most anything I've had no issues meat is a little hard u really must chew carefully I've not thrown up or anything eat slow when u start solid food u get full very fast and u can easily become uncomfortable after just one bite too many I read that advice for months before my surgery on this site however it's a lesson I had to learn in the moment it will seem impossible in the first weeks that u will eat normal food again we are all here to tell u that you will it is a process I'm not gonna lie or bs you it takes getting used yo it's a re adjustment u will find that u feel satisfied as u are full just as u were full before but on much more food then needed follow what the dr office tells u to do

[RNsleever715 117]

May sound kind of New Age, but this is a physical as well as mental and spiritual journey. Fear is just a signal that something new is about to happen.

That's exactly it! Fear of the unknown. I'm scared I will screw this up just like I have every diet I've ever been on.

[FluffytoFab 12]

I am glad that I am not the only one that has these feelings. I am in the last stages of approval from my insurance company and then will be able to schedule my sleeve surgery for the end of August or early September. I am scared that I will screw this up and end up right back where I am right now. So, thanks for sharing!

[RNsleever715 117]

I am glad that I am not the only one that has these feelings. I am in the last stages of approval from my insurance company and then will be able to schedule my sleeve surgery for the end of August or early September. I am scared that I will screw this up and end up right back where I am right now. So, thanks for sharing!

It doesn't seem so bad to be crazy as long as everyone else is crazy too, right? Hahahaaaa! ????

[OKCPirate 5,323]

Nothing is ever guaranteed, but this a great tool, if you respect it. But I really hope your journey will be as pleasant as mine. You are doing something courageous for yourself and the others in your life. I was blessed when I ran across this option. I am doing great, but I am inspired by the people on this board like B-52 and others who are doing great and they are in it for the long haul. Look up:

http://www.bariatricpal.com/topic/195065-you-know-you-lost-weight-when/

http://www.bariatricpal.com/topic/344769-fat-related-routines-you-wont-miss/

The posts might give you some inspiration.

[Monnie815 64]

RNsleever girl you sound like a a fighter so chill drink your shakes and relax. My biggest fear is sagging skin....lol..I have seen several people have R&Y and not exercise any and look like a worm with the sh$t slung out of them. I got my cardio glide set up I am ordering a small stepper to use while watching TV.

My husband is having surgery with me I am going first and he is having 2 weeks later or there about. Good luck

[RNsleever715 117]

My biggest fear is sagging skin....lol..I have seen several people have R&Y and not exercise any and look like a worm with the sh$t slung out of them.

I'm in the car with my husband traveling home, read this, and literally shot Water out my nose I laughed so hard!! ????????????????????????????

[RNsleever715 117]

The posts might give you some inspiration.

Thanks! I'm gonna have a look now.

[Monnie815 64]

I am very savvy with computers but can't figure out how to start a new thread on here.

[RNsleever715 117]

I'm not on my computer, so I can't help right now, but when I get home I'll post the steps for you if you haven't figured it out. ????