Fat confessionals

[glitter eyes 1,398]

@elode- congratulations on your wonderful success!!

It's amazing how life changing weight loss surgery can be.

[jane13 2,256]

@@dhrguru - OMG you had been laughing so loud at the reference to the biscuit container!!!!

I totally get that

I used to use rubber bands, or ponytail holders to "extend" the button on my shorts or pants. Of course I hadn't worn pants with a zipper or button in about 5 years until about 2 months ago. Now I am wearing pants with ZIPPERS! and front pockets (that I can actually use).

[Elode 8,093]

@@wheezysmom Ha! I have my old yoga pants that I LiVED in!! I never did any yoga either!

[natnat919 165]

I'm 58 years old, divorced with no kids. I am one of those lucky people who was able to retire early, my house is paid for, have no debt. instead of going to a 9-5 job that I hate, I'm able to be a Dog Walker, which is like getting love all day and getting paid for it!

But, although I have a wonderful life on paper, I'm very lonely. I want to feel that kind of love that God meant us to feel........I've been in love before, but it's never lasted. When I was thin in the past, men would fall all over themselves to open doors for me, find excuses to meet me, etc. Then I gained weight and have been invisible since 2008 to the opposite sex. I would walk into a building and men would let the door slam in my face. I could afford to do whatever I want, I just didn't want to do those things. Looking in the mirror was shocking. I had gone from a vibrant personality to a person who was embarrassed to leave the house. The fear of running into someone that knew the "skinny" me was mortifying..

I know that I'm valuable, that I deserve everything that life has to offer. I want to be thin again, so I feel good enough to do the things I love, the things I miss. I want to be confident enough that I can find the love and companionship that will bring back my smile.

I miss that girl.

[Elode 8,093]

@@natnat919 And with some hard work you shall have that again! I think the best thing about your situation is you have a whole lot of different things driving you for motivation! I can't wait to hear your new stories that this life brings! Good luck!!

[Elode 8,093]

I forgot to mention after not wanting to leave the house for so long now I've planned a trip with the kiddos to Colorado starting Thursday for a full week! I've planned a rafting trip, ziplining, hiking!!! The amount of stuff I want to do now is just crazy! I can't stand to sit in the house any longer!! It's like I'm trying to make up for all my fat years where I was to ashamed to get out and do anything. I'm so excited you just have no idea, I may drown out there but dang it I will be out in the world!!!

[LisaLouBop 181]

@@natnat919

Big {{HUG}} to you natnat.

[samuelsmom 670]

I am so glad I found this post! I can relate. I have been overweight all my life and am a nurse also. I really didn't care what anyone else thought of me, however, I knew that good luck and a favorable gene pool will only get you so far. I was 50 years old and couldn't walk down the street. Every step was painful on my knees and I couldn't handle any physical activity. I actually felt my body giving up and knew that if I didn't do something that I wouldn't live to see grandchildren. I tried for a year on my own with no success and then started my pre-op visits on July 28th 2014, had my surgery on November 19th and am down 93 pounds.

I am still overweight, still a little afraid that I won't succeed, but mostly grateful that I have been given this opportunity.

Edited July 20, 2015 by samuelsmom

[Elode 8,093]

@@samuelsmom Congratulations on your success thus far!

[jaterika 38]

I can't wait to hit that 100 mark as well but I have a long way to go I was sleeved 5/29 and I'm down 41lbs sometimes I see the difference and sometimes I don't but I'm not discouraged at all. I have been overweight my entire life and like just about everyone else I hate going out I still don't like going to the mall. I just want to get down and stay down. The little bit of self confidence I do have has risen up but I'm still to myself and trying to work on myself. Being a single parent and working full time can be a bit overwhelming at times but coming to these forums really brightens my day and gives me hope.

[Elode 8,093]

@@jaterika You will be at that 100 before you know it. And I can almost bet you there will come a time when you cross a Full length mirror and it will hit you all at once. Keep up the hard work!

[Nikki Monroe 71]

Wow! Can't believe I'm getting ready to admit to this.... Well here goes nothing????

I absolutely refuse to buy anymore clothes in the current size I am in now which is an 18. The slacks that I wear to work no longer fit me...meaning I can no longer button them. I have damaged so many of those metal hooks and bent them out of place that now I just use my belt to hold them in place. The zipper on them doesn't work any longer as well so I try to wear shirts that are long enough to cover the zipper and constantly pull my top down all through out the day. I can't tell you how many pairs of slacks I have literally busted out of! Super embarrassing.

I can't wait to start my journey with a new tool. I don't ever want to worry about busting out of my clothes again! LOL!

Edited July 20, 2015 by Nikki Monroe

[Elode 8,093]

@@Nikki Monroe Lol!! Yay! Now don't you feel better sharing that ha!! It's ok I'm sure there's a LOT of "embarrassing" issues we have all been through that aren't being shared. I'm proud to say I have not put any pants in harms way since dropping the weight. If you are a pair of pants you are safe in my presence!! -

[Nikki Monroe 71]

@@Nikki Monroe Lol!! Yay! Now don't you feel better sharing that ha!! It's ok I'm sure there's a LOT of "embarrassing" issues we have all been through that aren't being shared. I'm proud to say I have not put any pants in harms way since dropping the weight. If you are a pair of pants you are safe in my presence!! -

Thanks! LOL!! Good for them! Too funny!????

[SleeveandRNYchica 1,155]

You guys are funny!!! I guess we need to find laughter through it all!

I love when we have jeans day at work at least my dimples don't show through like they do in my ever so tight work pants although, the friction and sound of my thighs rubbing together in jeans makes me think I am trying to start a forest fire!