I want to fly!

[Wana77 18]

Hello,

My name is Edwana. I am a 37-year-old African-American female. I have been struggling with my weight my whole life. You name it and I've tried it. I've been on a roller coaster ride and I desperately want to get off. I thought I had reached the departure point when I had the band surgery in 2010. Imagine how crushed I was when that tool never really worked for me from the start.

I know that I am an emotional eater. .I work in the helping profession and I'm constantly bogged down by my own and others' emotional problems. My go to escape and happiness maker (for a moment) has been food. I definitely feel like I have matured over the last few years. I've learned to take it slow, to sit down while eating cut out fast food & enjoy cooking. I am also learning not to own things. I even have been exercising rack rolling for the last four months doing CrossFit. Nevertheless, I know I need assistance.

Even though I'm mobile and exercise, the stress on my knees every day from this almost 300 pounds it carries is slowly killing me. Not to mention the sporadic back pain and three blood-pressure meds I have to take. Part of me feels like I should be able to get this weight off to just show some self-control. But I am hoping that the band to sleeve revision surgery will give me that push that I need to keep going. I have a motivational board set up on Pinterest. I feel like that's when I was most successful; when I pin a positive affirmation & reflect on each day.

The one below is one that continuously crosses my mind and describes me. I so want this surgery to work but have some fears since I have been unsuccessful in the pass. Nevertheless, I know that I half to succeed and that I want to succeed. I want to fly off the roller coaster!!!!!!!

[Babbs 14,680]

If you want to fly, you'll fly.

You already know it's not going to be easy. But nothing worth it ever is, is it?

When is your revision?

[Wana77 18]

August 21, 2015

[ketukes 15]

You can do it!! Soar like a eagle!! You have so much support right here. My surgery is the 23rd, and I'm so ready to fly!!

[LadyK44 263]

I am in the helping profession also! We can be the worst patients! We tend to intellectualize our personal experiences. Make sure you remind yourself to take care of yourself and you will fly! This is often a great place for support! Welcome to a lifetime journey!

[Nurse 52 94]

You will do well my surgery is July 13 I to had the lap band and lost 115 lbs before it slipped . I discovered this site and I love it very informative with great support. I'm looking forward to having my surgery and getting this weight off of me again this time for good

[lexiemia 78]

Kiki, I am right there with you. Lap band, lost 100 lbs then my band slipped. I was converted to sleeve on May 28. So far I have lost 18lbs. i am so glad to have that port out. No more stuck food and vomiting. I just hate that now I have to lose this weight once again. This time will be for good. Sticking to this plan forever. So far the hardest part is giving up my Diet Pepsi and bread. I wish you both great success and I hope your revision goes as smooth as mine has.

Edited June 21, 2015 by lexiemia

[Wana77 18]

Thank everyone for their support

[lizsal77 22]

You have joined the right group everyone here is very supportive and have nothing but postive messages.