Just starting to really learn what it means to change

[donald0717 21]

I was sleeved on April 23rd and have lost 45 pounds since surgery. Overall I've lost 70 pounds since I started my pre-op classes and dieting. I never thought it would be possible to lose this much weight, this fast.

But it comes at a cost. I had thought I was totally prepared for this journey. That my mindset was in place. But I am still having to relearn my thinking and my actions. There have been few days when I haven't eaten too much. The first week being on the liquid diet was easy to not get a sore stomach. But starting the second week of full liquids it became harder. It's become downright impossible since I started soft foods last Thursday.

I have excellent support at home, (Maybe too good, as I find myself resenting being told what I should be doing) so that isn't a problem. I find myself regretting that I ever did this at times. So I'm going to start seeing my therapist again, maybe with his help I can get a handle on my emotions and stop being such an ass to those who love me and only want to help me. Time to start loving myself, and caring for myself again! I thought I was prepared to do that before surgery, but I guess I still need some help.

Oh yeah, everything went great with the surgery!!! And I've got an appointment to see the therapist tomorrow!

Thanks!!!

Edited May 14, 2015 by donald0717