Confession

[snowkitten 371]

Ok i have to confess, I'm 8mo post op and I've completely and utterly fallen off the food wagon. I wont even go into details of how badly I've fallen off. I don't think i even have a good excuse. I got frustrated with how slow I've lost, felt like it was impossible to get over this hump (I'm at 278, which is about the weight I've been most of my life) and already felt like a failure so i gave up.

A lil background info... I've been fat my entire life. i can honestly say i dont ever remember being under 250 (even at age 11). Most of my adult life I was about 260-270. About 3 years ago i ballooned up 100lbs. With this surgery I lost most of that, but i put on a pair of my old "fat pants" (size 26 from when I was this weight) and they fit snugly.... What the heck size did i wear pre-op?? It all just felt useless, like i would never get smaller then this.

No I'm not looking for someone to make me feel better, nor am i looking to be reamed up the butt (I'm quite capable of giving myself a stellar guilt trip thanks), I just needed to confess my stupidity so i didn't pretend it didn't happen.

I'm hoping that putting it out there will force me to be accountable for how i change things.

Has anyone else failed and been able to pick yourself back up?

[robym123 8]

I haven't fallen of the wagon but I am scared that I will I had my sleeve surgery on 4- 8 and I feel like I might be in the few percentile who isn't successful...

[Mremilio 95]

If you quit it defines you....get back on your plan and KEEP GOING! I doesn't matter how times one falls but what does matter is one gets back up. You can do this.

[snowkitten 371]

@@robym123 I completly know that feeling. I had it before and i have it now. Wish I had some great advice of wisdom for you.

@@Mremilio Yeah I think thats something i have to keep reminding myself. I keep thinking that if i dont loose all my weight in the "designated time" then im a failure.

[TammyDTM 391]

@@robym123 You've just begun your journey. Why would you feel you might not be successful so early on? I hope that you will read some positive comments and advice on this website and maybe join a bariatric support group in your area so that you can develop a more positive outlook for yourself. Think, trust, and believe the best for yourself!

[robym123 8]

I just don't know I tend to think VERY negative about myself and I am seeing a therapist and Iwill continue to see her so I can deal with my negativity.. She suggested this app to me and reading a lot of post of failure and success my mind is going a million miles an hour lol.....

[robym123 8]

I was just want to know what plans you had to get back on the GOOD BAND WAGON TO LOSE WEIGHT.....

[robym123 8]

Thank you Tammy for your words of encouragement...

[Swampdoggie 477]

@@snowkitten I've been there, when I had the band, and it was really tough to get back on the right path. What works for me is to read on the science of why this is healthy. And now that winter is over and it feels so good to get out in the sun, some activity may help jump start you. Best of luck!

[MyNewLife28 9]

I'm getting the surgery on the 19th so I haven't had this issue come up but I'm scared it will. Maybe get back to your "roots" go back to the beginning and start there... Protein Shakes, etc and find something you'd like to do exercise wise. I hate to exercise because I sweat like crazy... Always have since I was an average weight kid but I do remember the things I liked to do then and that was ride a bike and roller skate, while I'm waiting until I'm in better shape yo roller skate (I know I wouldn't be able to get back up if I fell) I did buy a bike and I love to ride it. Find something you love and if you don't remember try different things. Also, food wise, maybe you can remove the temptation at home to help you. Good luck!

[snowkitten 371]

@robym123 I think its natural to be scared at this point. Its great that your doing your research. This website is very helpfull.

To answer your question: Im going to buy weights for home so i have no excuse when i cant make it to the gym. Now that its summer Im taking my son to the park alot (While he plays i plan to walk around the park with my hubby to get in my 10000 steps), Im going back to tracking every morsal of food, Im not going to allow soda in my house, and no more buying goodies for others. Im going to get an assessment done at my local gym. IM going to weigh myself and log it every day (so far i only log it if i've lost, i think for my own peice of mind i need to know the trend of which days i gain because when i PMS i gain ALOT and that always depresses me). Im going to find hobbies to do when my hands are itchy to graze. Cut out carbs with meals. And most importantly, get back to reading this website everyday. Its hard to be bad when I'm reading this site!

[snowkitten 371]

@MyNewLife28 Thats so funny, I've never met anyone else who has an adversion to sweating!! My mom teases me that I have a fear of sweat. I actually think she's right. I HATE it. Not the exercise, just the sweating. And those stares you get from people when your sweating.

For me walking and hiking will have to be my fun activity. Thankfully summer in alaska is great for both.

[sharonintx 1,275]

Who designated a time frame? I'm just saying that there is no reason to think you've failed when in reality to have the rest of your life to make it work. It may not be working as fast as you want and you may not be doing all you can to help it along, but there's no failure. If you need to do better then just do it. Falling off the wagon and catching yourself is nothing to worry about. Just start today and do a little better than yesterday, and so on.

You have every day from now on to do a little better than the last. There's no race to the finish:) Love yourself and be kind to those you love. You'll make it in the end - you know - as in slow and steady wins the race.

[MyNewLife28 9]

@MyNewLife28 Thats so funny, I've never met anyone else who has an adversion to sweating!! My mom teases me that I have a fear of sweat. I actually think she's right. I HATE it. Not the exercise, just the sweating. And those stares you get from people when your sweating.

For me walking and hiking will have to be my fun activity. Thankfully summer in alaska is great for both.

I have hyperhidrosis which is excess sweating so I'm more aware of it and always sweet more than the average person. It sucks. I've let it control so much of my life. I'm kinda hoping I'll be like a lot if the people and be chilly after surgery. I'd like to see how the other side lives

[robym123 8]

That's an awesome plan @@snowkitten sounds like you have you foot on the wagon already !!! That's my problem is I don't want other people to have to change their lifestyle unless they want to of course.. so that was my worries about trying to keep other people in my house happy until they are ready to make a healthier eating habit