I think I'm in BIG Trouble

ljuht115 · June 18, 2007

I am in trouble - I was pretty good with my diet all weekend and blew it with two small slices of pizza. I feel full - I don't feel nauseus - I KNOW I shouldn't have done it. At the same time I also want to see what I will and won't be able to handle... i know I shouldn't be doing this. My Dr. has the most strict rules than any I have seen to date (except for those that went to my dr.).

I fully intend to follow his instructions for the next 5 weeks (as I don't really get to move to hard foods for 10 weeks post of which is why I feel bad about the pizza. Does anyone think think I have seriously hurt my band? Has anyone done something close? There is so much that I know but I felt like if I had to have one more Protein Shake I was gonna scream as that is all I have really had since May 10th!

I dunno - feeling confused, embarrased, scared....

HELP..

kimmom · June 18, 2007

Hello, I know how you feel , we ordered pizza the other night and I actually chewed up a bite and spit it out, I felt like I wanted to cry like I lost my teddy bear:) I had to call my mother who is one of my major supporters and she talked me throught it and by the time she was done and reminded me of how good I will look and how good I will feel and all the fun I will have shopping for new clothes I opended a cambells Soup at hand cream of broccoli and sipped it while they ate. Maybe you need someone to tell you the things that will help like I have my mom. Old habits are hard to break and they take time. I know I am a food addict and some days I could cry because food was so fun. I am now 12 days post op and on day 9 I did over eat on my mushies and had a very bad experience of vomiting with lots of pain. I know it sounds terrible but it is what I needed . Now the fear prevents me from doing it again. Tonight I went to the stove to get some cabbage and hamburger soup ( only to eat the cabbage and juice ) not realizing it I filled my huge bowl and went to walk away to the table when I noticed what I had done. My brain wanted it all but I only ate a few bites and felt discomfort. Just dont beat your self up maybe that was something you needed like my episode with vomiting next time you will remember how you felt. Dont be hard on yourself we all make mistakes but do be careful not to hurt yourself. When you are mentally hungry wanting that pizza feel free to PM me and I will give you my email . I understand and would do what ever I could to help you through it. Good luck

Kim:)

srsalas · June 18, 2007

YOU HAVENT EVEN HAD YOUR FILL YET HAVE YOU? You may feel diffrent

after that. dont the Doc's wait, 6wks. before your 1rst.fill I havent had the band yet. But I have read about people having the same problem.

They say sometimes the eat pretty good until.....THE FIRST FILL. Iam

afraid of that too. We all test the waters so to speak. good luck.and hang in there.

Sabrina

JLB · June 18, 2007

I really can't say much more than Kim already has but I do long for a supprtive mom to talk me thru it!

We all have issues with food that's why we are in Bandland. The great thing is... you have all of us to help you thru the tough times. Get back on plan and take care of yourself. Let your body heal. This is a really hard time but it does get better.

ljuht115 · June 18, 2007

Thank you so much - this is what I needed. For it to be okay not to be perfect. My major concern was band slippage but I think I am far enough into this that it should be okay. I don't know what I would do without this link. I ususally stick to my thread of may bandsters but was so scared that I did something wrong (which I kinda did). I will stick back to my doctor's regime as best I can but 12 weeks total without real food reallu got me..

I will keep the PM in mind Kim - thank you for the kind words and support. This is why I am here.