i have tried!

[Pepper123 320]

Besides my best effort to educated my mum, a women who is intelligent i have failed. For the last two weeks my mum wanted to have a chat. My mum lives across the pond, and i live in the States. Time difference , work and just life in general keeps be from chatting often to my mum...Yesterday we finally had the chance since i was off...My older sister simply refuse to tell me what the chat was about.Yesterday on my Daily walk it started like this"You a too skinny what are you doing to your self..Why are u always walking or at the gym'..."folks will laugh after you you are so small" now keep in mind am 5'8' 185 lbs normally am 235 and up. I just lost it yelling at the top of my lungs i gave my mum the list of illnesses i've has...Sleep Apena , Diabetes, High blood pressure and with drugs i never , never had a low blood sugar reading. Except and only when my sugar levels dropped. I am healthier ,my self esteem which was always high is off the meter. ..I fit in to smaller sizes and i feel great...How about u look great just be careful,is this too much to asked?..Everyone i feel likes a fat chick especially when you are the fattest one in the family...Inherited genes from my mums mother... .. i knew this day was coming my PCP told me this a few weeks ago..This week a mate passed me on the street my face gave me away..You are soo skinny she said keep it up!!!!..I went to my in laws house and am walking into her house and she did not know it was me..Here comes the advise (not wanted and i said as much) don't loose any more weight did i asked for your advise. I know the gossip milll was rampant when i left last night...If i had to do this all over again i would in a nano sec...But i won't do this again am moving onwards and am not looking back!!!!

Edited April 4, 2015 by Pepper123

[brmbrown 15]

Good for you Pepper! Keep feeling good, I'm sure you're looking great!

[mechele8 63]

???????????????????????????? Bravo and I love your attitude. I'm expecting the same from my family when I get there. I just had my surgery on 3/25 and I didn't tell anyone but a few close friends.

[KingMoose 238]

You are doing this for you! Don't worry what anybody else thinks! They are used to the "old" you and people hate change.

The most rewarding experience I have had since my surgery is when I saw my nutritionist at my 4 month check up. I went to his office to check in, when he came out to get me he did not recognize me.

[nyxn 19]

Pepper, you're not alone. I've been in the same boat with my mom for most of my life. She has never understood how difficult it has been for me to manage my weight and has in the past sabotaged my attempts at losing weight --- and she is a medical professional. One thing I've learned is that family doesn't have to be your support system and cheering squad. Friends can play that role too, and sometimes, they're even better at it. Do what you need to do to keep yourself healthy. Good luck with your journey, it seems like you're doing fantastic so far!

[Pepper123 320]

@@nyxn its soo hard of course i started to look a bit closer at my self...It made me sad but only for a few hours i was back to the gym on Saturday...LOL!!