Depression and regret

[jeannbe1 1]

So I had my surgery on 03/19/15. Since, I have had this feeling that I did something stupid. I keep asking myself why I would make myself miserable and have my anatomy changed and cause myself pain. I psychologically want food, but physically can't handle it. I am on the liquid diet but my dumb ass tried to see if could could eat solid food. I took a bite of a Cinnamon pastry. Holy hell did I ever feel like puking. Thank god I didn't because the thought of putting pressure on my abdomen is unfathomable to me right now. Shouldn't I be happy I did this??

[esskay77 785]

Give yourself a break--this is a pretty normal reaction. We have all had buyer's remorse at the beginning but that definitely goes away as the weight comes off and you really start to lose your comorbidities and you can start to do things you haven't done in years.

THrow the cinnamon pastry away!!! If you are going to try solid food, it can't be that!! Follow the plan, follow the doctors orders and you will soon start to wish you had done this sooner!!!

You are having a normal reaction at the normal time and it will pass. Best of luck and enjoy your journey!!

[carolk36 142]

I wish I could show you the future. I had surgery in September, and I promise, you will feel normal again. Follow your team's plan to the letter is the key to success. Your mind and body will catch up with each other.

I wish you the very best of luck!

Carol

[Lissapmkn1 41]

Hang in there! While I was sooooo ready to have the surgery and be done with the weight, the mental part of it all is something you have to figure out while you heal and move forward. Most of our weight issues are mental and psychological and that takes time to heal and change habits and behaviors. I actually see a psychologist once a month who also had the surgery and she has helped immensely !

It isn't a perfect process, but neither am I.

I am happy with my weight loss, but not the thinning hair or the saggy skin. But I do feel so much better and I am healthier. The mental part is taking time, but it took time for me to become so overweight in the first place.

As the weight goes down, the mental/emotional issues that were buried under the weight are coming to the surface. If you can talk with someone, please do. It will help you in this journey you are on.

Remember, we are here too!

Clarissa

[Lacey Elliseal 21]

So I had my surgery on 03/19/15. Since, I have had this feeling that I did something stupid. I keep asking myself why I would make myself miserable and have my anatomy changed and cause myself pain. I psychologically want food, but physically can't handle it. I am on the liquid diet but my dumb ass tried to see if could could eat solid food. I took a bite of a Cinnamon pastry. Holy hell did I ever feel like puking. Thank god I didn't because the thought of putting pressure on my abdomen is unfathomable to me right now. Shouldn't I be happy I did this??

I am right there with you! I didn't eat anything but I want to and I thought the surgery would change the way I feel about food. But everyone on here says eventually we will feel like it's the best thing we ever did, so we gotta keep the faith!

[Pepper123 320]

No matter how bad it is right now some ppl have it worst....It will all get better soon trust and your days of regret will be soon over...It's okay to have those feelings, we all do at some point..Especially when food is all around us....Hang in there life's about to get great for you!!!!...and remember the sleeve is a tool so use it wisely!!!

Edited March 26, 2015 by Pepper123

[jeannbe1 1]

Thank you all for your advice and for replying. <3

[kyrickchick64 468]

Honey your only a week out. Every one feels like crap. I'm 3 weeks out and I don't feel wonderful. Just hang in there. Fluids suck, Protein Shakes suck but it's done. Breathe in breathe out and move on. Eat what your supposed to. Follow your doctor's instructions. Get tough! You can do it. Im a whiny bitch and I'm hanging in. You can too.

[Focused1103 36]

I was at the feeling too, Right after surgery. I kept asking myself. What was I thinking? It will go away,

[shannpann 18]

I had regrets. Even now when I want to eat something I can't. I was surprised. It wasn't magic cure. I still want Bagels.

I had a tough time recovering, had to go back into the hospital and go through another surgery because I developed 2 abcesses. Never have I been so sick. I regretted it.

When I could only sip liquids, and it hurt, I regretted it.

The first lunch meeting at work, I regretted it.

The first time someone offered me a donut.... And I took it... And took a bite.... I regretted it.

This is a tough thing to go through. Maybe the toughest for some. It will get better. It will.

When My16 month old grand son was just out of my reach... And only steps from the road... I called to him to come here, but he turned with a smile and started to take off towards said road... I leaped to him and grabbed him before he took another step. I could not have moved that fast before. I DID NOT regret it.

60 lbs down. I no longer regret it.

Blood sugar stable and off diabetes Meds, I do not regret it.

Time. It takes time. But I was told that too. I had no patience. You will get there.

[ILO 7]

Jeannbe1,

I had my RNY surgery on 12/15/2014 and like you the first couple of weeks were tough especially watching all your family members eating great food around the holidays while you're on a liquid diet. I, like the rest of us who have had surgery, definitely questioned my decision to have surgery and thought I made a big mistake. Depression and resentment of other "normal people" eating what they wanted also began especially when I was on the puréed foods phase of the post op diet.

But believe me when I tell you that I now feel that this was the best decision that I have made in my entire life. I kept on thinking how miserable I was when I reached my heaviest weight of 466 pounds ( 5 ft 10 in). The depression and feeling of helplessness that I experienced at that weight is pale in comparison to the first month post op. I am down 66 pounds in three months post op along with the 40 pounds I had to lose to qualify for surgery. I have another 123 lbs to get down to my goal weight and I am excited about how even better I am going to feel as I get closer to my goal weight. My knees and my back no longer hurt me and I am enjoying life again and while sometimes I do miss a certain food it's not something that consumes my thinking all day long like it used to. You have no idea how liberating it feels to not be a slave to food and fast food drive up windows. I now eat to live rather than live to eat and you will too soon enough !

Please follow your surgeon's instructions so your body can heal and I'm confident that you too will eventually feel that this life changing decision was the best thing you've ever done once the momentum of losing your excess wgt really kicks in !

Good luck.

[rte837 141]

Yes! Be happy. Learn it early. And be happy you had the surgery. You weren't happy the way you were before, right? It's a new adventure and you will get over the buye's remorse as soon as you start seeing a beautiful new you!