Bipolar Rant!

[Pac-woman 325]

Today was my first day at work after being off 4 wks from surgery/recovery. Everyone gave me such compliments, telling me that I looked good and I look healthy, etc, etc.

This morning I went to put on a pair of pants for work. (I have been in tshirts and sweats for the past 4 wks)...the pants fell off of me. Not even a belt would have helped because they looked like parachute pants. So I managed to find something and rolled up the waist line and hide it with a long blouse.

Here is my rant- I went to Ross to try to find some pants or dresses. First I didn't find pants that were good for work. Then I hit the dresses. I could not figure out what size I was. I assume I was 22w. With a close to 40lb weight loss, you would think I would have dropped a few sizes. But noooooooooooooooo, only one. I tried on a dress in 20w, 18w, heck I even went for the 1x instead of 2x. The only one that fit was 20w.

So only one dress size down.

As I was trying the dresses, I looked at myself in the mirror. I almost broke in tears. I still see lumps and I still see my humongous thighs.

I was so unhappy. I just ended up getting that one dress and drove home in a pout. I hope that this is not it. I hope that it continues to go down, because I would really like to get the heck out of the plus size racks.

Feeling like a failure ........this was my bipolar rant. It was a good and bad day.

[Elode 8,093]

It's only been a month! Chill!

[Pac-woman 325]

@@Elode dang it! lol I hope it gets better. At what rate do we lose weight after 4 wks? Is it like 1 or 2 lbs a week? Any examples?

Edited February 10, 2015 by Pac-woman

[AvaFern 3,516]

If it makes you feel better at all, it does get better. I remember having a little meltdown when I was down about 70 pounds because while I fit into a size 8/10, I looked bad. I had a poochy stomach and fat knees and my arms didn't look good. Granted, I was 170 pounds at the time, which on a girl as short as I am just isn't hot, but I thought I had worked SO hard and lost SO much and I was still a big fatty. So, I used that sadness and I worked even harder. Now most days I look in the mirror at least when I'm wearing clothing and I think...hey girl, you're lookin good! Of course, then I look in the mirror naked and I am not happy at all, but hey, you take what you can get.

Moral of my story, you're only a month out- give it some time. As long as things don't stay the same and you don't gain weight, you're only going to look better. Time passes no matter what you do, at least now you know you are spending that time working toward being the size you want to be.

[suitechicguy 105]

Its ok to have a moment. You have done great and youll get there before you know it.

[Elode 8,093]

@@Pac-woman my average is 3.57 lbs a week. I don't weigh every week so I'm not sure the exact. If I've had a stall I don't know it. I try to stay away from the scale. All I know is I'm 2 lbs away from 50 and it's been 3 months. So see your doing good! I was a size 18+ now I'm a 12/14 I'm also taller than you according to your measurements and weighed a little less at the start. Everyone is different but it's only been a month you are just starting out so don't fret!

[LipstickLady 25,682]

So uhmmm... You had surgery a month ago.

How long did it take you to 275 pounds? If your expectation is to drop from women's sizes to lady's in a month, you are setting yourself up for failure. Big time.

Breathe in, breathe out. Relax.

[duncanb007 12]

My Doctor said should aim for 1kg (2.2lbs) per week weight loss till you hit goal weight. I've not had the op yet. But hope it's all going well for you.