Celebrating a death tonight

[Mrs. Reid 392]

I have been listening to Dr. Duc Vuong's podcast about successful wls patients. He has one of the highest success rates with wls patients in the country. What he says about the one thing that a patient can do to insure success at weight loss and keeping the weight off is to let the overweight food addicted person you once were die. Just let her die. So tonight I lit the candles all over my house....I brought the last alcohol I will drink in a while. I toasted all the coping mechanisms that kept me safe from harm...the fat that kept me unattractive to the men who would abuse me.....the food that made me feel better on cold lonely nights. The thick layer of distance I put between me and the cruelty of the world. And I said goodbye. It is sad, it is hard, I'm not sure how I am going to cope without that protective false self to keep me safe. But she's dead and I am going to let her die. I hope you will all join me in saying "Thank you fat self for all the years of keeping me safe and invisible from the world. But now I'm old enough, strong enough and experienced enough to take care of myself without you."

Ashes to ashes

Dust to dust

Goodbye.

[harley_quinn25 80]

So deep! I love it. I'm wit u!!

[Slimsoon1988 123]

So great! I want to be less invisible and open myself up to love. I'm getting sleeved on the 25th and im ready to begin a happier life.

[cnxn4 7]

That's some good advice. I never looked at it that way. I'm with you on that. I'm getting sleeved on the 19th. I'm thinking of it as a birthday now. Thank you!

[mykdzmom 387]

Cheers!

[finediva 979]

Wow! I felt like I was right there with you. But what I was really feeling was the truth in your well written words. The strong emotions your post stirred up was unexpected. Thanks.

[Salonboi 353]

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[Flygirl123 150]

Your words brought me to tears. Such a profound & thought provoking post. Thank you for opening up your heart & sharing your truth. I'm going to listen to the dr pod cast. Then find a way to mourn the loss of my fat self.

[Mrs. Reid 392]

Thank you all for your kind words. It was great to get that out. So often I have ate through my feelings. I deserve to be heard.

[minniegirl 258]

GOOD STUFF!!

What an inspiration ():-)

[whirlwen 65]

Thank you for this! I have worried a lot about how my life will be without food as a source of comfort and protection. I just downloaded the podcasts and plan to listen to them today and spend some time contemplating the death of my pre-sleeve self.

[smile121 66]

I love this! And I feel the same way!!! It is time to evolve past that scared girl, and mourn the loss of her. Wonderful post!!!

[CountryGirl5584 115]

Awesome!