I hate waiting!

[NewMary83 52]

I got the call last Wednesday that my insurance approval came in!! I was so happy! I see the surgeon today at 245! I will get my date then! Can't wait! Saturday I had some excitement.. I had received a letter from my insurance company stating that I was cleared for admission to the hospital 1/29/15! I got super excited thinking that was my surgery date but my friend said she doesn't think so, that it's just a clearance letter A part of me is still super hopeful that it is the date even though I could use more time to let work know... Lol. Now that I have my approval it is all so much more real! My anxiety is setting in. I know I want this and I trust that the last several months of preparation have prepared me but I'm terrified of the actual surgery and dying. It's helpful to read everyone's posts though and see everyone doing so well! When I get worked up I try an remind myself that this really is a better choice! If I don't do this now while in younger and healthy(ish) then 10 years from now I could be looking at worse surgeries an under way more unhealthy circumstances! Idk just wanted to share my thoughts and frustration at all this waiting lol!

[Djmohr 6,965]

Congratulations on your approval! I remember heading into surgery with that same feeling of excitement. For some reason I was never scared. I have had a lot of surgeries in my life and most of the time I fret about them and don't even sleep well for a week before.

For some reason I was so excited to get started on this new life that being scared or nervous before hand just did not occur.

Hopefully your nerves will dissipate prior to surgery and all will go well.

Keep us posted on your surgery date and I will say a prayer that all goes well!