Never Been Normal Size In My Whole Life...

[downsizingdiva 459]

As I'm two weeks away from surgery, it has just occurred to me that I've never been normal size my whole life, and so I don't know how to be a normal size. I can't explain it. I just know I'm not going to be the jolly full figured girl I once was or the morbidly obese woman that I've become. It's going to be all new to me. Anyone else been there?

[Elode 8,093]

That's an ok thing! You will just evolve into a new "normal".

[joatsaint 2,814]

Me too. I've been overweight since elementary school and just got bigger every year - so at 48 I have no recollection of EVER being a normal weight. I did find an old pre-school pic of me in which I looked like a normal sized kid.

I was very worried at one point pre-surgery about how I was going to handle being "normal" sized?? I knew how to be fat, I was comfortable being fat. Now what do I do???? What do I do when I can't use my fat an excuse to stay socially isolated or not take chances in life or in my career?

The good news, is that the transition from obese to normal doesn't happen overnight. I was able to ease into the new me. I'm very comfortable in my new skin, but I'm still working on the whole "self-esteem" thing.

As I'm two weeks away from surgery, it has just occurred to me that I've never been normal size my whole life, and so I don't know how to be a normal size. I can't explain it. I just know I'm not going to be the jolly full figured girl I once was or the morbidly obese woman that I've become. It's going to be all new to me. Anyone else been there?

[Quest4TheNewMe 225]

I was in a size 14 in 7th grade. I'm now wearing a size 14 (6 weeks post-op). It's crazy to think I'll be in smaller sizes soon... This is the least I've weighed in 15 years.

I'm right there with you!!

[msreaina 133]

I been there and it's was scary thinking I will be normal size. Just like oh my I can't shop at a normal store and not the Avenue and Lane Bryant. It amazing to know that you body will change long term. Embrace your change it will make you fall in love with you all over again

[downsizingdiva 459]

I have those same thoughts and feelings too. I do already feel a little better about myself. Honestly I wad getting to the point that I didn't even want to go in stores, spend time with friends, wouldn't get out of the vehicle when I would pick my kids up, just totally withdrawing. I'm so thankful to be getting out of that little by little cuz that's never really been me.

[LipstickLady 25,682]

As I'm two weeks away from surgery, it has just occurred to me that I've never been normal size my whole life, and so I don't know how to be a normal size. I can't explain it. I just know I'm not going to be the jolly full figured girl I once was or the morbidly obese woman that I've become. It's going to be all new to me. Anyone else been there?

You are going to be YOU in a normal sized body.

[CheleLynn45 615]

I was what I guess you would call "normal" sized back in highschool. Not super skinny but average.

What really gets me is when my 15yr old daughter said to me, "mom I really never knew you any other way, I can't wait to see you shrink!" When she was 2 yrs old I had lost 85lbs and had gotten down to around 190. I felt good and healthy at that weight, but then life and stressors happened and before I knew it in less than two years most of the weight I lost was back on.

This time I am determined to be successful!!

[KristenVSG2014 1,872]

Yes. This is me as well. I was sleeved 11/3/14 and I hit my lowest adult weight on Monday after only 8 weeks. From here on out I have no idea what my body will look like because it's never been that weight at this height. But I'm excited! I feel like I'm peeling away layers of the old me and exposing who I really am, and always have been, but now people can see me for me.

However, it's strange because people are noticing me. Like...I'm aware of people looking at me and not because they are being judgmental. I'm not invisible anymore and I don't know what to think about it. I kind of liked the anonymity of being obese and not worrying about people hitting on me or "checking me out" but dang it if I haven't had some random people honking at me lately! And I dress modestly!