Rough day

[amponder 396]

Seems all I want to do is eat today, I've done real well as far as eating Protein today, and the types of food I'm eating but, I sat down to some grilled chicken and was dipping in light ranch dressing, and when the chicken was gone I honestly wanted to cry, because I wanted more I could have eaten more, but I had 2 servings, It's head hunger really I don't feel physically hungry any way I've had a Protein Bar since then but I don't know what's wrong with me today.

[SandyM 1,956]

I have days like that when I eat just to entertain myself. Try finding something to do. Also, how many fills have you had?

[amponder 396]

@@SandyM just one so far

[Kitt3000 757]

Familiar. Try doing something physical, move your body, not only your mind. I'm rearranging a room as we speak. Trust me- I would rather be..

I've let things pile up- now it's time to move it out!!????

[Leepers 1,195]

Continue to make it through those days and they'll become a thing of the past.

[amponder 396]

I made it i did finally get on the treadmill and after that I watched TV and used my one of those bicycles that your can sit in your lap and work your arms a bit. It did help me take my mind off of it.

[Bandista 7,466]

@@amponder way to go! I am really working on rewiring my thinking so that I turn to thoughts of exercise rather than thoughts of food (food, food and more food). Sometimes I do this by reviewing a walk or workout session in my mind, going there mentally, and I also use that arms up in the air power pose, like crossing a finish line, and I remind myself how I chose WLS surgery, I chose myself and my healthy future. This is a difficult time of year. So grateful for posts like yours that remind me we are all in this together.

[JustWatchMe 7,117]

I thought I replied to this yesterday but I guess I didn't. Just wanted to say I've had a rough couple of weeks with head hunger myself. Bouncing down into Onederland and back up and out. I'm being gentle with myself. And staying aware that the head hunger does not get fed with food. Or drink. The stresses I'm feeling from a pending divorce and my younger daughter leaving for a semester in Europe in a couple of weeks, on top of an edgy relationship with my mom (I'm living there for now and feel like I'm 20 again, and not in a good way) are all stressing me out in a big way. food was on my mind all week, even though with my latest tiny fill I'm probably at the perfect green zone for now.

WLS does not fix our brains. But the good news is that I have the power to recognize the underlying issues now, and the strong desire to work on them. No distractions from an emotionally unavailable and outright hostile and mentally abusive spouse. I can self-care without self-medicating.

I'm kind of grateful that I'm not at goal weight yet during this first Christmas after leaving my home, because it gives me a physical goal to continue to strive for as well as the emotional goals.

I hope this makes sense. I feel like I've grown a thousandfold in the nine months since my surgery. There's so much more to do, but I've got time.

Edited December 21, 2014 by JustWatchMe

[Dakota Girl 38]

Wow! all inspiring posts, thanks everyone. I couldn't help but notice amponder, you have already lost a LOT of weight, and you were just banded in November, hard days are inevitable, but you have made amazing strides, let that fuel your fire!

[briefs199 337]

Amponder. Right with ya lady!!!