Fighting the blues and worry

[amponder 396]

Today is day 8 Post OP, yesterday was the 1st day I was able to eat on my list of acceptable things is cottage cheese, my book says I would only be able to handle 1 or 2 bites, I ate nearly half a tub, and did not get sick, not that I wanted to get sick, but the fact that I was able to eat that much worries me a bit and I feel bad for not stopping myself I knew I had, had more than I should have, but I have been on liquids Since Oct 18 and it was so stinkin good. Now I am worried that even when my band gets filled I'm not going to feel the fullness. I am also a feeling a bit depressed, I don't know if it's the weather, I haven't been able to return to my previous exercise routine, my family isn't helping with the house they are simply waiting for me to feel better...... blah blah blah and a big sigh.

[Bandista 7,466]

Hi there and congratulations on having the surgery in the rear view mirror. You are doing great! I could eat that much in cottage cheese, too, and you know what? Your body probably needed that. Don't worry! When your band is adjusted properly (remember, this is the whole idea of an adjutable lapband procedure) it will feel very differently. Take it easy, thank yourself -- you've done an amazing thing.

[send2steph 26]

Don't worry - when you start getting your adjustments, things WILL be different. However, I caution you to really practice your eating now. My mouth (teeth, cheeks, tongue) were and still are so practiced at shoving food down, that I sometimes swallow bites that are too big without even thinking about it. It just happens. Practice.

Hang in there and take it easy.

[amponder 396]

I am feeling a bit better after getting out, and @stephtosteph yes I will practice I'm a food inhaler as well.

[amponder 396]

I am feeling a bit better after getting out, and @stephtosteph yes I will practice I'm a food inhaler as well.

I meant sendtosteph

[Bandista 7,466]

Me, too, on the inhaling -- I did practicing on the clock one bite one minute. Hardest thing was putting the utensil down. Didn't want to let my weapon go, lol. I still have to be mindful but it is easier with time. New habits finally.

[send2steph 26]

The funny thing I have found, is that wait staff in restaurants seem to notice when I lay my utensil down and im waiting between bites. They keep coming over and asking if everything's okay. Lol

[Keeper 218]

that's hysterical about restaurant staff!

One of the things that I am also 'amused' by is that for the most part, most people say to practice mindful eating, not sitting at the TV or whatever, but our dining room table is small. I'll set my boys up at the table, hubby sits on the couch, and I find myself at my desk a lot (we have a linear open floor plan kitchen->dining->living room). I find that if I take my half cup of whatever and sit at my desk, check FB, answer an email, read things here, etc., I actually space out my bites.

@@amponder sorry about the blues. I have been *mostly* ok since my surgery, but I have had a couple of really hard moments, so I get it. I guess I would just say, be gentle with yourself, lots and lots of grace (we are not going to change over night. If we could, we would have done it already!). Lots of good vibes sent your way. :-)