45 days until surgery... it's been a long road.

[Jelko7t3 18]

I am getting so excited that I am finally going to get the surgery done. For years I talked myself out of it, and then my ex husband refused to allow me to do it. "I would get skinny and not want him anymore." Now, I am at a good point in my life and I am scheduled for the surgery 12/19/14. Here's my issue:

I was originally scheduled for the surgery on 9/2/14, however I unexpectedly lost my job on 7/1/14. Due to finances, my hubby and I decided to cancel the surgery, and honestly I wasn't sure I would be able to do it - EVER. However, I was able to find a job that is willing to work with me and the time off I will need after surgery to recover.

When I started the program, I did everything just like I was supposed to, drinking habits, slower eating, cut out soda and I even lost about 20 pounds. When I had to cancel everything, I went back to old habits and gained all of that back... I am so mad at myself. I am afraid the surgeon is going to tell me we can't do it now... I am working diligently to reestablish the new habits and I am determined, so I know all will work out okay.

I hope you all are having a good day!

Kelly

[Emmyandlisa 12]

Good luck, I hope it all works out!