Emotional Mess

[Beanthere 5]

I have been on a roller-coaster!

I am excited about the surgery, but scared about the outcome. I hope my results are going to be as well as the Dr. seems to think they will be. I am also kinda freaked about being around people for dinner gatherings now.

The whole divorce from food is HARD! It's such an aspect of life, family and culture.

I was so moody one day, I actually got snappy with my nutritionist because she was trying to be helpful and telling me how great I'm going to feel and how the transition was going to get easier and I said, "How would you know? Have you done it?" I felt a bad, but anyone who tells me (now) how easy this process is or that I am taking the easy way out, well...kinda ticks me.

I just hope for the best and keep plugging on, but sometimes I got to have a sob-fest. At least I can control that.

[Dabliss111114 180]

Hey ya'll... so good to hear that emotions are all over the place. For all of us getting ready for the surgery I think we're sharing many of the same fears. I think it's the fear of the unknown for me. I don't know what to really expect that first couple weeks, and then like jacileggs I look forward to seeing my reflection and wondering who that hot old gal is. Right now I avoid all windows and mirrors whenever I can. I want to know who the real me is again. That woman has gotten lost somewhere along the line, and she's dying to live again!!

[SwimSlim92 10]

Hey ya'll... so good to hear that emotions are all over the place. For all of us getting ready for the surgery I think we're sharing many of the same fears. I think it's the fear of the unknown for me. I don't know what to really expect that first couple weeks, and then like jacileggs I look forward to seeing my reflection and wondering who that hot old gal is. Right now I avoid all windows and mirrors whenever I can. I want to know who the real me is again. That woman has gotten lost somewhere along the line, and she's dying to live again!!

I totally agree about feeling you have gotten lost along the way. I've been so heavy for so long I don't ever remember being skinny except for pics of my first 3 years of life which is emotional enough to think I'll look in the mirror and see a different girl and that maybe for once I will like my own reflection

[SandyS 77]

Since I wrote this post I have been as calm and cool as a cucumber! I feel so much better knowing I am not alone. So thankful for this site and for everyone that I can share my journey with.

Edited October 23, 2014 by SandyS

[Tierra T Tij 56]

I don't have my surgery yet but I relate to being an "Emotional Mess". Right now I AM a mess. I cannot seem to get used of the pre-op diet they gave me. It is VERY hard for me because lately I've been feeling sick and exhausted. I realized with this new plan that I do feel fuller faster and more energy but the downside is feeling sick to my stomach. I am following everything it says to do but I guess my body just needs to adjust to this plan because right now I am going through hell. I feel like I want to eat but can't because I already don't have much of an appetite. I feel like I am fueled by optimism and will power lately. I do like this feeling but I think I probably need to drink more Water again and eat just a tad bit more because since I got this diet I don't know what I should eat, how do I prepare it, when I should eat, or how should I go about drinks before and after meals because I used to love to drink A LOT of water during meals now I have to learn to train myself NOT to. I have no clue what is wrong with me and wished that I understood why and how I feel this way.

[SandyS 77]

Tierra T Tij how are you? Getting through your pre-op diet? You will be fine. I keep telling myself that this is a major life altering decision, for the better. Keep smiling! You will do great!!!

Edited October 24, 2014 by SandyS

[Dabliss111114 180]

Hi.

Has anyone heard from Lost1. I think she was supposed to have her surgery later in this month. I think I remember reading that it was moved up from November.

My pre-op is Tuesday. My surgery is then 2 weeks later. I'm really starting to get panicky. So many family things happening right now that are very stressful, and I'm having a hard time coping with it all. I'm not sleeping well, and I'm really concerned about the 2 week pre-op liquid diet. My poor husband doesn't know if I'm going to cry to snap his head off at any given moment. I keep telling myself that it's all going to work out, and that I have to worry about taking care of myself right now, and let someone else worry about taking care of everyone else.

[blackonynx 27]

Sandy S. I'm also glad you posted this concern. I've had my band removed 8 weeks ago and will soon start the pre-op diet. No surgery date set yet but I am already a nervous wreck. Before banding, I changed my mind at least 5 times and they were tired of me I know. Now I'm ready for my revision surgery. So I can only imagine how I"ll feel once I get a surgery date. I'm afraid of what others will say and act towards me being thin. We can all relate, and once I get my surgery date, I know that I will be coming back here reading these posts for support as well. Remember, we are in this together and I know that you'll be giving support to me and many others. Thanks!

[Lena375 4]

My surgery date is Nov 4th and I am stress eating like crazy which is making me doubt that I am ready. Also I have not heard back from insurance company yet and how come it seems that everyone else has a two week liquid diet and mine is two days? I'm freaking out. So you see, you are definitely not alone! Good luck to everyone!

[Dabliss111114 180]

Starting 2 week liquid diet tomorrow. I'm ready, but still in panic mode. Going out to dinner today with family. It's been dubbed "the last supper". When I see my doc tomorrow for my final pre-op visit I'll probably weigh 10lbs. more than I did the last time I saw him. I had to quit smoking which was really hard to do, so I know I ate more than usual. I've also been treating myself to my favorites. I feel so guilty.