Feeling Good Enough to Look for New Honey??

GonnaDoIt · May 10, 2007

I'm not sure how to change my ticker so it reflects my progress. I'll have to look that up. Ok, a little timeline:

2000 - weighed around 193 lbs, which was my 'set point' for many years. Prior to the birth of my first child, this was about the weight I had been for every relationship I'd had. Height 5' 6". Size 16/18.

2001 - first child born. Six months after baby born, weighed around 215 lbs. Size 20/22. Frustrated, joined Jenny Craig and managed to get down to 185 lbs. 30 lbs was the the most I had ever lost on any diet ever. Size 14/16.

2003 - another baby with new boyfriend. Six months after second child born, weighed around 225. Size 22. Frustrated, joined Jenny Craig again. Lost ... 8 lbs over the next 3 years. Very frustrated.

2006, end of August - banded. Start weight when banded: 217.

2006, near end of year - decided my relationship was bad and wanted out.

2007, beginning - informed boyfriend of decision to break it off. It was tough because I think the reason I stayed in the bad relationship so long was because I was afraid I would never find anyone else. I guess I still have that fear.

2007, May (now) - 189 lbs. Size 16.

Life with the band has not been easy. I still have a strong drive to binge. You really realize how much you want to binge when you have the band. Its been tough. But the weight has been coming off. Its still coming off.

Now I think its time to look for a new honey. I need to come to terms with my current appearance while I start looking and shouldn't think that I'll wait until I lose more weight before looking. I've never even been as thin as I am now when I've found boyfriends I've liked in the past. The only thing holding me back is me. Its just that since I was 217-225 for several years, its hard to accept that I'm already much smaller than that now.

GonnaDoIt · May 10, 2007

Figured out the ticker!

kimsretro · May 10, 2007

You go girl!!!! You deserve to be happy and you deserve to be treated like the princess that you are. I feel no matter what your size, your true love will find you and love you for who you are. My husband and I met and married when I was at my highest 330. Best of luck to you and let us know your progress.