female only i found a lump on my breast and i'm petrified

[jessiquoi 623]

All, thank you for your support. Your messages meant the world to me!

@@BeagleLover, i have my mammo every year around my birthday in october. well, this year's will be a little early.

here's the update. it's a doozy.

i called my pcp, who i have to tell you i adore, and was put on hold for a very long time. (the receptionist pays great attention to the person at her desk at the moment, so i knew i wasn't forgotten, just that they were busy.) while i was on hold, i was IMing a work friend about this, and she highly recommended her obgyn. i was not really thrilled with mine, and hers is much closer to my home, so i hung up on my pcp and called them. luckily, someone had just cancelled and they were able to see me within the hour, so i left work and headed on over.

i get there, sign in and fill out the new patient paperwork, and realize my blood sugar was feeling low. i'm a type 1 diabetic, fyi. so i tested my blood and i'm just on the cusp of low. and geez louise (not my actual words, censored for public consumption) i didn't have my glucose tablets with me. as a type 1, i am always prepared for anything. why today of all days did this anomaly occur? so, i turned off my insulin pump to stop delivery of any additional insulin and decided to ride it out. that should have been the first sign to me that my sugar was going low... irrational thinking is a big sign for me.

so the nurse takes me into the exam room and does a medical history, then has me undress and sends the doctor in. actually, a certified nurse midwife. anyway, to my great embarrassment, not only can't i find the lump now, but i can't even remember which breast it was in! and my blood sugar is now low enough to cause irrationality to set in big time, and so i don't tell her that my sugar is low and i'm not functioning. i just sat there and felt like an idiot. she couldn't find the lump. great first impression on my new practitioner.

she gave me a script for a diagnostic mammo, which i am having friday morning, and told me whether they find something or not, if i want she will send me to a specialist after the mammo. i went home, ate, and lay down in bed feeling reallllly bad, and then found the lump again. i can only feel it when i'm lying on my side, and on the table i was lying on my back. oy vey.

ANYWAY. i'm feeling better mentally, which is due a LOT to all of your messages and responses. i'm in the office today and feel like i can function, and will update you again after the mammo on friday. i love this forum, i knew someone would reach out to me. hugs to all of you!

[thesuse2000 698]

Wow, sounds like quite a day! Glad you're getting the mammo on Friday and will hopefully have peace of mind soon.

[BeagleLover 1,020]

@@jessiquoi, I know this is hard to do, but please think along the lines of, "I refuse to get upset over something I don't even know is there or important." Relax until you know otherwise. That'll help stay on an even keel in the meantime. Best wishes for Friday!

[jessiquoi 623]

i'm going for a mammogram and ultrasound this morning. wish me luck!

[thesuse2000 698]

Thinking good thoughts for you!

[jessiquoi 623]

So, everything came back normal after the mammogram and ultrasound on Friday... I'm sorry I didn't take the time to update this thread, I was too busy doing the happy dance.

Except the breast center just called me, and the radiologist wants me to come back in to have more films and an ultrasound on the OTHER breast, cause it looks different than last year.

They said it's not an emergency, which is good cause I'm out of town on biz until the end of next week. I'll go on 9/3. Wow, I can't believe it's almost September already. I'm almost sleeve-ready!!!

[SleevedSharon 24]

Awesome news at least they are being proactive when will you be getting sleeved

[gowalking 10,790]

Good. Now you can relax. I'm sure if they were concerned about the other breast, they would want you in right away.

[jessiquoi 623]

so, i had my second scan, and everything came back normal. wanted to let you all know, thanks for caring! i love my breasts